★ DID ★
Thursday, December 04, 2008
it's pass 12 midnight already. it's thursday. i'm having statistics test later. i hope i can pass. cause.. well. i don't know.
mum. bring me on a holiday. i need it. in fact tmr would be a nice day to start with. I WISH.
bring me far far far far far far far far far far far away.. leave me there.. i don't want anyone to find me. I WISH. mum, i'm not gonna sleep.. its okay, right? I WISH. mum, i'm hungry.. very hungry. my last meal was at 10am on wednesday. i had a cup of coffee and bread and ostrich eggs. and.. i'm very lazy to eat now. maybe i shall go to bed. so i wont think of this hungry stomach.
mum.. i really need a break.. i can't take it anymore. i wanna cry everything out.. and in this case.. "mum" is my inner self. my other identity. maybe, i have DID. or maybe, i have depression. just depression not yet with suicidal thoughts. or.. i have schizophrenia. maybe.. i'm just a normal kid.. who just need a rest.. a rest from everything thats going on.
if only you'd help me. if only you'd give a helping hand.. if only(s).. it won't come true.
hold my hand, let me feel the trust. i need all of it.
but i'm not getting it..
love,
bsyra