cause the moon doesn't need the stars

cause the steps i made are histories i write.

★ FYI ★

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i put up a new song.. a JIWANG song.. i know some of u dont like jiwang.. but u know.. i just feel like putting it up.. thats all.. it's my all time fav song since my childhood days anyways.. make me think back the stupid things i've done during kindergarten.. and how the ATOK BUS always give special attentions to me.. i dont know why though.. i didnt ask for special attentions.. but i got it just like that. NICE. ouh, until now.. i remember that junior of mine who vomited ON ME. cool shyyt!! hahaha. I STILL REMEMBER OKAY!!! =D and and, i also remember having zakiah as one of my close buddies.. and and... this another girl, whose face i still remember, but not the name.. and of course.. CHA.. separated during pri sch.. but meet up again at sec sch.. COOOL!! see.. i remember alot of things. =D one thing i'll always remember, NOSE BLEED.. yes, it was my daily routine u know! espacially when i knock on to something or someone and my nose get hit so bad.. any sec, theres that red liquid flowing down. HAHAHAHA! i miss those days laaa! i also remember going to school, and wasnt feeling well.. and the next thing.. the Teacher sent me home.. cause i actually got chicken pox. i also remember this classmate of mine.. he got this very round face and big ears.. and i'd call him mickey. *oppps!* i remember that.. haiya.. alot of this la i remember!!! i know u all dont wanna know.. hahha! i'm relieving my stress out la, FYI!!!

BYE LA!!!

3:24 AM

★ my comp break down la bordo!! ★

yeah! my comp broke down! and i wont update my blog like i always do, wont be online like i always do.. ouh, what i'm using to blog now? my bro's lappie.. he's having a good mood to let me use it.. if not.. DREAM ON BEBEY! unless i give him a treat, like i did just now.. *so was it that i treat him.. thats why he gave me the permission to use the lappie.. or the good mood?* HAHAHAHA! anyways, i read something... which i dont know to believe or not. but ouh well, only God knows.. true? HURTFUL, very much indeed.. but yeah.. and i'm a NO ONE to be so KAYPO and that person, too wouldnt care abt what i feel.. true? HURHUR!

and to that person, i just want u to know that i still havent forget u kay? well, if u got someone to replace me already.. then.. u know.. u can go ahead.. i'd still be here though.. herh.. just don't make me hate u alright? =)) kay best..

i dont like sad blog u know.. so yeah.. here goes!!

previous post, i said abt me going to work.. and yes.. i really had a wonderful time at school/work.. very much indeed and i'm missing my kids so much..

Hanney Wardeena: Teacher Nur, i love you, you know!
Shameer: Teacher!! i love you too, you know!!
Teacher Nur *me*: i love you too, Deena and Shameer. =))

one of the nice things that happened in school. and i know they really do love me.. cause u know.. shameer and deena sat on my lap when i let them watch Barney, when they were supposed to sit on the floor. see.. haha.. and u know, i got two rings.. one on the left, and one on the right..

Hanney Wardeena: shameer.. yg tu *pointing to the left one* awak nye cincin tau.. yg ini *pointing to the right one* kiter nye.. okay??
shameer: okay!! kiter pki okay??
and they took out the rings and put in on.. HOW CUTE!

then, deena got hold on to my camera, she was the another me u know.. snap here and there. haha.. while shameer was still so in love with me and still sitting on my laps. hahs! he started to hug me tight and kiss me on the cheeks.. KIIYYYUUUTTT!! *and to think that he was the VERY/MOST REBELIOUS/RUDE KID of the school (told by the other teachers)* haha!! the day was just superb la sey..

SATURDAY
was more of a sitting at home and rot! and and.. KAK RADIAH GAVE BIRTH TO A PRINCESS, which name is... IFFAH BATRISYIA.. !#$%%^&^*(;^%&$%$^#$^%^^&*(*(*%^&()__+_(&$%^ and abg im was proud to say this, "name die mcm name adk kt blakangnye..." IF ONLY HE KNEW! hahaha. anywaysssss... i wanted to see the baby la.. and by the time i read the email.. it was like arnd 6 already.. and they were at Mount E Hosp.. and CHINGAY were going on.. and i know i surely cant make my way there, true? HAHAHAHA.. so i didnt went. HURHUR!

SUNDAY
i went to madrasah okay! woohoooo! =D very very happy... cause i woke up mahh!! hahahaa. and anyways.. again, i wanted to see the baby after madrasah... BUTTTTT i ended up sleeping during CSI:NY.. lucky that episode i watch already.. if not... !#$%$%^*(&*%$^&^*&(^* !!!! hahaha!!!

MONDAY
it was the movie marathon day... the girls came over my place.. we watched Dreamgirls and Apocalypto.. Dreamgirls is actually kinda boring la. hahaha! but we managed to survive through out the movie bebey. =D Apocalypto is of course a very nice show to watch.. i know my girls will love it. hahaha! and they did!! =D YAY!!! they went off after that.. cause khai/kak eka gotta work see.. hahaha...

TODAY*actually yesterday la u know.. cause it passed midnight ready!!*
went out with the girls.. yeap yeap! we went to town.. window shopping bebey... hahaha. i'm broke.. very much indeed.. grrr! give me some money ppl!! *oppps??* hahs! anyways.. we went to Esplanade late afternoon.. to watch the sunset.. i love watching the sunset u know.. cause... hmmm... it's btwn me and God. God knows why... snapped a few pics.. i havent load it up though. hahaha =p after the sunset seeing.. we went off to tamp back.. it was nice to be with them.. i feel a lil different today la.. abit "quiet" with them.. i didnt talk alot today.. i was kinda tired i guess? i dont know la actually.. something going on in my brain or something? HERHHHS.. anyways... reached home at 2130.. talk2 with mum and dad.. plus watch tv. haha. and then... erm.. watch more of tv... and here i am.. online very EARLY in the morning.. when i should be sleeping.. WHEEEE! my midnight buddy went to bed ready. he's tired la i guess.. nvm la.. hahs!

damn, this thing really make me think alot la.. urgh... i should forget abt it la u know.. none of my business right.. yeahhh.. i'm like listening to those OUH-SO-JIWANG songs.. DAYM!!!! whatever la! i better go do something else.. =D

BYE LA!

2:55 AM

★ ★

Thursday, February 22, 2007

idiot la!!!!
tomorrow NCC...
and then i got ~~WORK~~

ARGH!!!!!!!
I WANNA GO NCC!!!
CAUSE I WANNA SEE THE PART As!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

8:29 PM

★ sorry for.... ★

i'm sorry for not blogging quite a few days. hurhur! i didnt go online yesterday.. well, i did lar! only for 1 hr. haha! what i did yesterday was basically.. went out with syahir again. i told u i love my cousin. haha! we went to town together. he was the one shopping la. i'm BROKE, shu' up! hahaha! he said this, "tnk shopping ke?" i said, "huh? no la. no money. unless u treat me lar." he said, "ya la, i treat u.. want anything say okay." 0_0 super shocked bebey! haha! BUT! i didnt spend his money. hehehe. he bought socks and singlets from Topman, wallet from.. erm.. i forgot, but it was Ripcurls wallet.. he bought a cap at 77th Street. almost bought jeans.. but i can't seem to decide any nice one for him.. so tk jadi. hahaha! then we went to Long John to have our .. branch.. yeaps. he's forever with LJS. haha. then he did his stuffs. i'm somehow addicted to the smell. *gawd! no! never!* ANYWAYS.. did a little more of walking here and there.. and decided to go home, CAUSE!.... his friend called up.. nak maen bola =.= hahaha.. he took the bus, i took the MRT..

reached Tampines.. went window shopping again at TM, alone. haha! cloths cloths and cloths. i just can't seem to look at them lar. I WANNA BUY ALL! hahaha. i crazy, I KNOW! =)) hahaha.
ouh ouh! and i had a hard time deciding what time to sleep yesterday.. cause there was the CSI season 7.. after that was Spiderman.. and after that was CSI again.. and it will be at 0430hrs when everything finishes.. hahaha. BUT! i was too tired i guess.. received last msg from syahir at 0230.. and i went to sleep. haha!

anyways, gonna slack at home the whole day today.. let the tiredness go away. i don't know i'm dead tired. haha! yahoooo!!! there's training tmr. and i'm VAIR VAIR VAIR happy! =D

OKAY BYE!

5:00 PM

★ My Heroine ★

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me
And leave me desperate

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was
Lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself (myself)
I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else
Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal
But under your covers more torture than pleasure
And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on, I'll break you, my habit

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times when I was
Lost and depressed form the awful truth
How do you do it
You're my heroine

I will save myself

4:56 PM

★ Chinese New Year ★

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

GAWD! CNY was never this.. SHIOKKKKK! wahahaha! kay.. firstly, the cousins outing was more of a DATE cause the rest can't make it last min. sad ey! but i did enjoyed. hahs! if only we went off a lil earlier.. the shops would still be open... yeah, CNY eve, shop closes at 5pm.. syahir keep on blaming me cause i ate too slow. he finished up his meal already and i still got fries and a piece of the long john chicken fillet more. haha! yeah. he's that fast. grrrr! anyways, since syahril wanted to meet me so much, he msged syahir telling him to drop by esplanade to meet him.. and so.. we made our way to esplanade. andddddd we wasn't there. =.= yeah.. watched the sun set together.. and he still wasn't there. grrr! was almost 8 or so.. then he came... while waiting.. snap a few pics of me and syahir.. wanna see? later. =p hahaha!

take one :
him, "u uh! don't know how to take pic la! take some more"
me, "sorry la! fine! take some more!"

take two:
him, "ahhhh! perfect! =D"
me, "yay!!"

take three:
in the esplanade.. hot la outisde, so decided to go inside and enjoy the aircon. hahs!

and then, talked to syahril for less than 10 mins.. and he went off, so much for waiting 2 hrs for him. HURHUR! made our way to woodlands checkpoint.. and then some tragic story, won't say it here. haha! waited for my abg at jb.. they did their stuffs.. walked to Lot 1.. waited for dad for another 1 hr.. haha! syahir said this, "today is a waiting day.." hahaha!

take four:
waiting for my Dad at Jb =D

tell me what is wrong with this picture. hahaha!

was almost 11 when we reached home.. slacked awhile.. waited at the balcony to see fireworks.. wanna see them? nahhh!

ignore the ending. rubbish la the ending. hahaha! the "wahhhhh" is mine. =D haha!

there are some very nice ones that we were too WOW-ed and we didnt record. haha! slept at 1plus plus am..

next day was a very fruitful day. haha! enjoyed with cousins.. had bbq at night. cousins went off to Kampong Melayu *vair vair sad!*. was tired but not kinda thing.. slept a lil early.. but woke up super late.. like 10am. haha! had my breakfast. packed my stuffs.. went off to SG by bus, again.. hahaha! fun la..

*okay.. i'm making it so boring.. cause i lazy wanna type la..! hahaha!*

okay okay.. till here ppl.. CNY was just OUH-SO-WONDERFUL!! i love it!!

GD NIGHT PPL!

1:10 AM

★ hoho! ★

Friday, February 16, 2007

hello pple! i didn't update yesteday, yes. i know. reson cause.. I WAS TOO TIRED LA! haha! i woke up at 9plus in the morning, tried sleeping back afew time.. but just can't la sey! so decided to get off the bed.. watched tv.. at 12, woke Ir up. prepared to go out with my dearest darling girlfriends.. =D hahha! we went to Food Culture, as always.. eat eat eat! headed to VIVO! haha.. i was tired when i got there. durh gitu! haha! walk2.. played the drums on display. COOL! hahaha. then theres the electric guitar and bass also.. switched on the amplifier and strum and strum like nobodys business.. but the guitar so loud.. so decided to play the drums. haha! fun u know.. stress reliever.. "aku tgk bas maen drum seram siak" Ly said that! hahaha! da la kiter sume tk tau maen.. satu drum set.. 3 org skali ketok2.. rabak.. dahsyatttt! hahah! and like stupid gitu.. ppl walk pass us and look at us.. why? cannot uh? wanna join? come come! =D if you're wondering where that stuffs are.. it's at best denki la.. hahaha! super tired ready.. go to the osim part of best denki.. ape lagi! massage chair! hahaha! i made the girls use the uPapa and iSqueeze.. they say "shiokkk!!" i said, "nk lagi, rajinkan diri dtg rmh aku okay? heheh.. " then i tried this.. iPamper. SHIOK la sey! father, buy that one okayy? ahahaha!

anyways.. it was just fun la okay! haha.. the pics? well.. i'll put them up soon. i actually put some at friendster already la. hahah! the stupids ones, i'll put them up on blogger soon. haha! =D

guess what? i've been sleeping late lately, like 2 am, 3 am.. yeah. haha! what i do? easy.. watch tv.. talk to Ir.. haha! wanna know the plan for the outing.. well, I DON'T KNOW. hahaha! well, actually i know uh.. abit only.. haha. but what i know.. after the outing, we're gonna go jb together gether! WOW! fun bebey, fun! i mean.. never in my life i do this kind of things la! hahaha! adults-free! HAHAHA! and like.. Mum side's of the cousins.. WOW!~ wonderful bebey! i'm just soooo excited! hahahaha! vair vair excited bebey! a night more to sleep. and we'll meet each other! woooohooooo! u guys must be saying this, "u crazy uh.. they're just ur cousins.. no big.." well.. cause they're my cousins.. thats why i am like this. hahaha! believe me, I LOVE MY COUSINS alot! =D hehehe! i'll be at jb from sat till mon, or tues.. so.. don't miss me alright?? =D hahha! who wanna miss me.. gendeng! =D

till here student! i mean, children! =D take care!! BYEBYE! i'll be gone when u wake up tmr. hahaha! mcm phm. DIAM LA BIBA!

4:35 PM

★ and the nominees are... ★

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

hey! i did said on Monday that i'll try to get the pics up, true? well, i managed to meet him yesterday.. and transfered the pics.. and here they are..

the story goes... after eating, as always.. we'd asked them to put their heads on the table after wiping their tables and waiting for the rest to finish.. and so, after every single one of them put their bowl and cups in the pail.. Kak Syida went like this, "okay children! everyone has finish eating.. lets put our hands up and recite our Doa after eating..." *if you're wondering, the teachers always sit at that corner, where you see an upside-down pail.* the kids started to recite the Doa.. and the boy infront of us, Zainal Ariffin, were complaining about his SUPER PAINFUL mouth, and we thought he was just resting his head to let the pain go.. "Teacher Zaleha student *my class that is, i relief mah* u may go in your class first.." he didn't stand! hahaha! and he wasn't the only one.. Haziq Yusri also fell asleep! hahaha!

Haziq Yusri and Zainal ariffin..

a close-up of Haziq Yusri

a close-up of Zainal Ariffin

and then, me and mama naia decided to carry them in and let them sleep at the sleeping corner *durh!*

there they are, sleeping. Haziq Yusri woke up though.

still sleeping and enjoying the aircon

me and Syafiqah *sempat*

mama naia and Haziq Yusri *sempat jgk!*

SUDDENLY! Zainal Ariffin turn here and there.. and his legs ended up on top of mine. =.=

still fast asleep though! hahaha!

ahhhhh! the CLASSIC sleeping method! NICE ONE BEBEY! hahaha!

i had a hard time waking him up, cause it's time to go home la!! he woke up like.. "ahhh... nk balik?" hahaha! funny la these kids.. and ouh, it was play time.. and not study time.. so it's okay if the kids wanna sleep. hehe!

THE END

9:58 PM

★ what la! ★

as you can see, i've changed my pic, again. and also my song. haha! i bored you know one whole day at home. no one wanna bring me out. *sedih* haha! today, i woke up late! *very happy!* cause yesterday, i slept late! i slept at 2!! haha! *very very happy!* it has been a long time since i stay up late. so i decided to stay up late! *very very very happy!! senyumx* huahua! and yesterday, Syahir didn't fall asleep! *amazinggg! =o* hahaha! i'm like seriously so bored la can? my "anak angkat" not here. B.O.R.I.N.G.. boring! =D ouh ouh! and and.... i do not ~~celebrate valentines~~ =D

Your smile makes a difference
You reflect my dreams
Nothing ever matters
Whenever you're with me
Your surprises never fail me
You're my need
Your innocence reveals
The love I have in me

I crave for your presence
I yearn to hear you
I understand more
Because of you

You're a natural, all is possible
Everything seems right, its so surreal
There is no pretence
Nothing can compare to the moments we share

You're my perfect joy
A splendid sight
Like a stained glass that
Sparkles from inside
Unconditional
love and honesty
Its all because of you

Your beauty lets the darkness
Refect true love
The world is so much better
Whenever you are with me
Embracing our days
You are my life
Time waits for no one
Forever you'll be mine

7:16 PM

★ bored bebey. ★

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

i'm BORED. one whole day at home. lucky got my "anak angkat" to have fun with. but now TOO TIRED to layan him already. how can he call my mum and dad "atok" and "nenek" and call me "kakak"..?? it's supposed to be "aunty" okay! hahaha! he's my second angel bebey! first is obviously dearest ilyas. *i miss u dearest darling* hehehe. so what are the things we did the whole day? played with him. let him hempap me here and there. gave him roaches, just to make him sit down la actually. haha. bibik caught real live ones and he was super scared okay! hahaha. and u know, he loves me la. it's stated in his face. haha! ouh ouh.. u know.. i was super kurang ajar.. he wants me to do something with him. that seriously require alot of energy and TIRING! and so i asked him to kiss me, then i'll do it.. haha! he did! nice one bebey! =D

ouh ouh! guess what! he's asleep!!! nad i'm can go out! just to return the library books la giler! hahaha!
BYE LA!
and ouh, i should have followed Ir to DAE just now. DAMN!
syaaaaaaduuup larrr!

4:20 PM

★ ACTUALLY...... ★

Monday, February 12, 2007

.... i got alot of things to blog about....

BUT!

i.. TIRED! wakakakakakakakakakkaka! =.=
today right, i was supposed to hang out with my girlfriends to watch... GRAMMYS! woke up early.. bathed and everything.. when i got out of the toilet.. i got 5 missed calls from MAMA NAIA.. as i suspected.. i got to go to WORK! so yeah.. called her back.. "eh.. kak leha tk dtg nari.. aku tkle handle bdk sorg2.. turon ehkkk.. pleaseeee....".. with great pleasure *well, ALMOST* i said.. "okay la... aku da siap nanti aku tros klua kayy.." so yeah.. WORK! haha.. i wanna show the pics i took in class just now. but then kn.. i need HIS lappie to transfer it all.. cause i dont have gigibiru la bodoh! and when will i be seeing him? well.. next week i suppose. LONG way to go bebey.. nvm la.. guess i won't be putting it up. but... CUTE LAR! got story u know the pics.. hahaha! okay la shut up lar! after work, followed mama naia to bedok as she's meeting her family there.. and wanted me to teman her wait for her family.. being good, AGAIN.. *almost still!* i followed her. see! i kind soul u know! then jln2 awhile with her since her family not there yet. bought new earpiece for zaki.. told u i very kind. =D then met up with her family.. i went of to take 69.. blast my ears with songs. got home.. rest awhile.. went out back to cc for monthly meetings. TIRED LA SEY! hahha!

anyways, i've been msging syahir alot lately.. planning the outing.. and the day has been changed to Saturday. wooohoooo! sad la actually. cause my family going off to jb on Friday night.. till Monday.. and yes... i can't make it for the outing i planned. *stupid, I KNOW!* BUT BUT BUT!!! i managed to persuade mum to let me to jb alone, which means to say.. i go for the outing with them.. saturday night or sunday morning.. go off to jb alone.. and ask mum to fetch me from jb checkpoint. =D clever kn, I KNOW! hahaha. and if i'm lucky enough. i can tompang any of my aunts that are going in on Sat night. wheee! hahs! u know, i'm still msging Ir now, seem like he's not replying. reason being.. CAUSE HE'S ASLEEP! hahah! yesterday also like that sey. msg2.. and then.... *sounds of crickets* ... next morning.. "sorry ehk.. tertdo uh smlm.. hehehehe" cannot say la.. my cousin mahh. hahs!! okay la.. going off to bed soon. tired okay..! =D

night ppl! don't fall in ur dreams.

rararuuuungg!

11:40 PM

★ wheeeee! ★

Sunday, February 11, 2007

ey ey! today.. fun! haha! woke up.. LATE! haha! then watch.. CICAKMAN! haha! and then.. go to... CC! for the... YOUNG EXPLORER! and then go to.. DADDY'S PLACE! to see his.. BABIES!! haha! and then.. GO MEET HIM, again! *cause he was there, for the young explorer* haha! and then go.. Century Square!.. and then.. WALK HOME! hahahaha!

short and suhhwettt bebey!

something to say: I'M TIRED LA! AND I WANNA SLEEPIE SLEEP SLEEP CAN? yay!

okay bye!

11:46 PM

★ shut up lar bordo! ★

Saturday, February 10, 2007

sometimes i really feel that...
i was never there..

~~i'm wishing you were here~~
~~my weakness is my fear~~

9:57 PM

★ =D ★

hello ppl of all ages! =.= hahaha! i'm just so happy one kind lar okay! and i have no reason for the happiness. hurhurhur! yesterday was just a "blast" la okay. i got alot of unknown numbers msging me.. hahaha! and guess what? one of them was Dearest Syahir!! i actually called his crib *cause i didnt know his hp number =.=* then he was still not back yet. i asked for his number, and his dad said he don't know. *ALAAAAA KASSSIIIMMMM!!!!* so while i was busy checking the courses here and there, i received a msg from him.. it was about 10pm *i think* when we started msging each other. guess what time we ended the convo.. at almost 1am! hahaha! my BILL SURE GONNA SHOOT UP HIGH ABOVE THE SKY SIA! hahaha! like suddenly he wanna have a chat with me. i really find it weird la. i mean, he's one of my cousins that i'm not really close to, and here he is joking around with me. WEIRD BEBEY! haha! and during the long conversation, we talked about work, results, and and and! i suggest an outing for the cousins! =D yay! i miss my cousins okay! cause we live at different part of singapore. haha! i've only told Dearest Izyan about it. i shall msg Syahir to tell Syahril about it. and i'll tell Dearest Nidzam soon too. only the five? well yeah. the only young TEENs bebey! i've planned with Syahir yesterday. and we decided to fix the date on Sunday. still not sure if the rest can make it. hope they can! i wanna wanna wanna wanna meet my cousins! haha! =D

today is the another day at home. HURHUR! boring. no one wanna bring me out uh? actually got ppl ask me out ready la. who? shira. she got birthday party. but then, i half-hearted la wanna go. cause i BANKRUPT ready. and i need money to get the stuffs for Sunday, Young Explorer. WHICH! i still don't know what to do for them for Art and Crafts. HURHURHUR! i'm seriously BORED, and i don't know what more to blog about. HAHAHAHA!

okay BYE!
and ouh, MISTER, i miss you. THANK YOU!

4:51 PM

★ results are OUT ★

Friday, February 09, 2007

yes, results are out. i... didn't do well.. yes.. BUT, i managed to pass my basic 4 subjects. *yay-ness!!* and so, poly still want me. =)) *a big ALHAMDULILLAH!* atleast i know where to go gitu lor. HAHAHA! did i cry? yes i did, but TWICE only. and for ONLY, less then 2 mins or maybe 1. hahahaha! wanna know why i cried? first. i was enjoying with my friends, sitting down. making fun here and there. to be exact, with kakak la, dearest kak pi. yeap! was making jokes here and there. seha keep on saying, "kakak ngn adeq same sey perangai." yeah! haha.. then suddenly, mary said this, "eh bas, bpk kau turon ehk?" me, "entah.. tk agak uh.. asl?" .. "tu mcm bpk kau.." me,*turn and search* "bukan uh.." then the next person is ela.. "bas.. bpk kau ehk..??" me, "huh? tkde la.. bukan.." her, "yg sblah Silva tau.." me.. "*getting my way to have the right view to see if it's him* eh a ah uh.. bpk aku..!" and suddenly tears came down. but! i was laughing. hahaha! then blabliblu. was outside school. when Ms Lin *bio teacher, and the teacher i'm so called "manje" with* saw me.. and she said, "eh ya.. of all ppl, i didnt see your slip." guess what i did? "no need la cher, terrible.. " guess what she did? she pulled the slip of my hands. hahaha! and guess what she said? "WAH! U PASSED SCIENCE!! i'm so happy!!!!" she gave me a hug.. and i said, "cher!! don't make me cry la can!" by the time. tears went down ready. hahaha! but i was still laughing. haha! i'm like so happy, with the fact that i DIDNT do well. weird? i KNOW! hahaha! PSLE also like that mahh. harharhar!

anyways, u know.. a few days ago. HE gave me this song.. and guess what? i'm like SOOOO addicted to it lor! hahaha! thanks eh, HE! you know the type of songs i like pretty well. hehe. and HE, i'm sooo missing you okay? okay, good! =))

take care ppl!
I'M HAPPY. and i won't kill myself!
YAY!
hahahaha!

6:10 PM

★ short and sweet ★

Thursday, February 08, 2007

tomorrow is the big day. i shall make this entry short and sweet.

the outing with HIM just now was just superb. i really enjoyed. i'm me again. =)) ignoring the facts but still holding on to it, yes. i miss HIM so much, and it was really a pleasure to meet HIM just now. thank you so much for bringing me out. =)))

for tomorrow... hmmm.. all the best to all. what if i dont do well? only God knows la okay what i'll do. =))

take care ppl. i love you guys!
and i love HIM.
gd night.. sleep tight, and SWEETEST DREAMS to all!

10:47 PM

★ chocolate! ★

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

so what did i do today? haha! today was more of the me and abg day together. cause wed what! abg nvr school! okay la. every wed abg nvr go sch, but today abit special.. cause.. he didn't go to sleep at 11plus plus! hahaha. ouh yes, he'd usually have his nap that time. and then we watch movie together gether. best la sey! haha! i woke up.. and then.. we watched Apocalypto, wah siao! super violent.. i LOVE! kill her and there. but then sad seyy. the kids parents got kidnapped. and they leave the kids alone at the village. KESIAN u know! the story really make me go abit.. "argh!!! tkmo bunoh!!!" yeah! super violent. i should bring my girls to watch it. they'll LOVE IT with all their heart! hahaha. and then i was bored.. so i wanted to watch Constantine *my all time fav.. i won't get bored watching it EVERYDAY!* and then abg saw and he went like, "eyy! tgk Night at The Museum uh.. aku lom tgk!!" and so i changed the disc, i was JUSTTTTTT about to press play seyy. hahaha! and so we watched. it was an AGAIN for me lar. yesterday also watch sey. haiyoo. hahaha! and then i went out ALONE. haha! to TM and CS, i bought that ring! yes yes! the one at montip. the one the rest bought already. haha! and then walk2 arnd TM and CS. best you know. but i don't like la! ppl stare2. i know la if i walk2 alone my face very.. very.. garang! ppl will think i angry with someone. cannot help it lar! i'm like that by nature ready! can put label not when i go out alone? haha! okay okay..

actually i lazy la wanna blog. no no.. actually i wanna sleep la! hahaha ey ey! tmr i'm meeting creative zen nano plus red colour! yay! SUPER HAPPY SEY! i miss creative zen nano plus red colour super alot alot okay! hehehe okay okay. gd night ppl! i love creative zen nano plus red colour su muchie much much! =)))))

10:34 PM

★ i... love... YOUUUUUU ★

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

shimmer riki dikiding
shimmer riki dikiding
i.. love... youuu!!
i love you in the morning
and in the afternoon..
........ *i forgot the song*

hahaha! i suddenly feel like going back to school and teach!

hello! how are you?
hello! how are you?
hello! how are you?
HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

actually all the songs i know abit2 only. hahah!

good morning!
good morning!
it is good to see
your smiling face.
good morning
good morning
to you and to you..

yes, it's still half way. haha. i dont even know if it's right. HURHUR!
did i get them mixed up. ouh well.
haha!
u guys may be thinking, how can i teach when i dont know how to start the day.. well easy..

"children! what we usually do now?" "sing song teacher!!" "OKAY!! 1... 2... 3..." and they'll start to sing. hahaha! easy right? i KNOW! =D

anyways, i stayed home the whole day today. B.O.R.I.N.G harharhar! i dont know what to blog la actually. gendeng, I KNOW! kay la..

BYEEE =D
ouh ouh, and.. GET WELL SOON, okay? <33 =))

9:07 PM

★ i do feel like blogging ★

yes, i do feel like blogging. but.. there's just too MUCH to say. and i don't thing i wanna say it all. yeaps.

i'm happy in a way now that, i've known the truth. yes, sadden-ing also to know the truth. happy, yet sad.. get it? good. i have no reasons to be jealous or whatever more now. you're leading a happy life now, and i know that. i can't deny that i'm never gonna be the girl you onced knew. i shall not interfere in your private life anymore. i'll just keep quiet, unless you ask, and you tell. it has been three days, and there's still tears though. things happen for reasons. yes, i kept alot of things from you.. reason is cause i don't wanna hurt you. i don't want you to think that you're hurting me by the things you do. i'm a liar. yes, i am. but i lie for good reasons, and i hope you'll understand. it's not your fault, it's mine. i think too much, and i get myself hurt for thinking the things i shouldn't be thinking. yes, that's the real truth. i love you, bestie. i know you know it well, and i hope you love me too, like how i do to you. =))

okay next!
hmmm. congrats to the Lions for the victory. *now then wanna say* i spent my time watching the finals at Mazlan's Residents. damn, it sure was fun watching soccer with them. hahaha! the best thing was, i can MAKI all i want! hahaha! cooooollll shiiiittt! don't blame me, blame them! they started it first! hahaha! alot of the "m.k.p.p" "p.m.d" "a.s" "s.p.j" and what more! FUN YOU KNOW!! haha. shout the vulgarities here and there. cursing the thais, esp that number 7 jackass! WAKAKAKA! *i'm sooo mean!* anyways, after watching soccer. i sat in the room with yana and Nyet, the dearest cat. i was soooo mean *again* and kacau2 Nyet. haha.. then she was mean to me! she go cakau me. first time. nothing wrong. second time, i feel like eating her alive! hahaha. she cakau me until got blood okay! but abit only. no big. wakakaka! and then she know i binget of her ready.. she ran out of the room. gendeng cat cat! hahaha. then when i was at the kitchen drinking water.. she came to me.. purr-ing so manje-ly.. idiot right? first, cakau me.. and then manje2 with me. hahaha. she want food. thats why super manje with me. hahaha. but guess what? i ignored! hahaha. i'm not mean okay! it's cause she ate alot already.. =D haha! the night ended with my super red plus swollen eyes.. yes! yana was on the phone with her dearest zul when i was lying down.. thinking and thinking and never stopped thinking. and yana pathetically told zul that i was being so "pasrah". =.= hahaha! then zul asked this super.. "stupid" question.. "pasrah full ke pasrah half half?" like super duper buper zuper =.=, can?! hahaha! then i said.. "pasrah half half." hahaha! btw, thanks eh zul! aku da tk pasrah lagi. wakakaka! next morning was kind of a drama. hahaa. before sleep, fina told me this.. "kak baishoknaa. bsk klu alarm i bunyi.. i tk bgn..kejut i tau. i takot i tk sadar.. mampoz i lmbt gi skola nanti.." and so i nodded and promised her i'd wake her up. guess what?! i HEARD the alarm, and i was thinking "i'll wake her up when the alarm stop ringing, she slept late yesterday. let her sleep a lil while more.." so while i was waiting for the alarm to stop ringing... i... FELL ASLEEP! PURE SHIT-NESS! hahaha! then i woke up, not knowing what time it was.. i turned. i saw her still sleeping.. "dodoknaa.. bgn... u nk gi skola pkl bapee?" ...*waking up..* "uh?? skrg pkl bape? i lom dgr alarm i..".. "i tk tau pkl bape. my hp batt da mampoz. u gi check ur hp.." ...*finding her phone* "MAMPOZ!!!! DA PKL 6!!! I DA KENE KT BAWAH TUNGGU BUS SKOLA SKRG!!!" and i went like... stupid me to fall asleep, but lucky me that i got up and to wake her up, atleast! she sonic-ly bathed and everything. haha.. cute sey.. and u know.. she sempat say this.. "naseb u kejot i sey.. klu tk.. i tk gi skola la nmpk nye. thanks eh kak bai!" haha.. then she went off to school. lucky her bus came kinda late for that day. haha.

anyways, my stomach is sure not getting better. just feel like taking the knife and just... hahaha. =D

forget it. till here ppl.
take care =))
i miss you my love, do get well soon.

12:49 PM

★ Say Goodbye ★

Monday, February 05, 2007

Look
We Gotta Talk
Dang! I know, I know
It's just some things
I gotta get off my chest
Alright
Yeah
Oh ooh oh ooh oh ooh oh

[VERSE 1]
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know?
What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I kno...

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[VERSE 2]
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times
I Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know? What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it I,
I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [x2]
Do you hear me crying? Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
There's never a right time...

[CHORUS] [x2]

11:33 PM

★ i love you ★

hey ppl.

yeah, i know.
i've not been blogging.
guess what?
i won't blog till i have the mood, okay?

as i've said. some things are better left unsaid.
today was great though.
outing with the girls.
they coloured my day. i miss you sayang.
thanks dearest darlings.
i love ya'll. =))
i miss you sayang. and i'm loving you still. forget me not dear, please.
take care, and till then..

10:38 PM

★ ★

Saturday, February 03, 2007

iabeehc yeban al uoy kcuf

somethings are better left unsaid, but certainly not the ones above. =D =D

so long, you mofo. =D

and ouh, being the old me is super hard. but well, who cares? true? as long as i can still take these shits.. i'll carry on life as i always do. =) and come on, everyone has their own private life, true? and so do you.. and cause of that, i won't interfere your life. even how hard it takes to understand.. i'm still here, for you.. but i know, i was never there.. take care, bestie.. you'll always be here, in my heart. i love you. =j

10:36 PM

★ i'm back, partially back. =) ★

good ~~morning~~ afternoon ppl! well, yesterday was a disaster, and i wanna make today a pleasure. pleasure to all. =))

so what happened yesterday? had work in the morning, like durh. half day. kids were fine. i was actually tired and so i didnt really cheer them up. sorry children! anyways, when i wanna make them sit on the floor to watch "TV".. suddenly they went like.. "aahhhhh!!! teacher!!!!! got SPIDER!!!!" and i went like, "okay! move back kidss!" it's no ordinary spider, it's damn big! 3/4 of ur palms, yes! i was shocked to see the spider. it's like, this spider made me go "damn, i not gonna pick u up!" usually i'd just pick up spiders and play with them, but this one.. NO NO NO! it's to BIG to play with. the next thing i did was.... "KAK FAIZAHHHHHHH!!!!!" i just had to shout cause i never wanna leave the kids with the BIG spider alone sia! it was funny though.. then she shouted back,, "UHHH?? APENYE??" in my heart i went like, "alahai kak faizah nie.. meh sini je la!!" then i shouted back, "MARI SINI!! CEPATTT!!" she came.. and i just point to the BIG spider and she went like, "astaghfirullah, besar nye!" she took the broom from kak huda's class and push the BIG spider out to the garden. naughty naughty spider.. and then after that, when they sit on the floor ready.. i asked them to sing itsy winsy spider. hahaha! after they sang. let them watch Monster Inc.

finish work, went back.. get ready for NCC. met girlfriend at her place. went for a photoshoot. wakaka! no lar, take pic for the school pass thingy. then mbaa said she wanna join in. so waited for her. then went bubble tea and bought some drinks. *sempat siak* walk to school.. filled the CLT form.. *scary siot!!* ey ey! my pic super cheerful sia the face! hahaha. wanna see? okay wait..

uh, there.. haha! not clear la. but well.. this is also the pic we put on the CLT form, CO was being soooo.. crazy and said this, "wah.. bas.. they see ur face, confirm give SENIOR clt one!" =.= hahaha! and then mbaa's and girlfriend's name in the pass was wrong.. and u can see from there. then they re-do it.. *u can see it in the pic that there's two layers on their pass.. cause they find it cool and took the pic with the fake overlapping the real =.=!!" haha! sedih seyyy!

got home at arnd 7.. was super ired but well.. blabliblu.. slept at 11.. woke up at 9 just now. and not gonna go out today. hurhur! MUST GO MADRASAH TOMORROW!! MUST! gonna put 3 alarms. hahaha. siao sia me, i know! =D

till here peeps! take care!!

1:57 PM

★ ★

Friday, February 02, 2007

i'm tired
i'm not feeling too well
i'm not in my usual mood
i'm not the girl i am tonight.
make me happy, please..

so long, and goodbye.

9:23 PM

★ sick la eyy! ★

Thursday, February 01, 2007

guess what?! i'm SICK!! not really sick sick, but sick sick. get it? haha! my stomach is not making me happy lar! what happened actually? well basically, I DON'T KNOW. since yesterday it has been like this. sucky okay! with the weather so cold, fuuuh! *i'm still wearing jacket!* hurhur. and then u know, i got the "kuay teow phobia." then my neighbour gave us kuay teow goreng. with my stomach like that.. suddenly i smell the kuay teow.. i went like.. "buekkkk!" yeah.. i ALMOST vomit, and ALMOST is the keyword. told u i got the phobia. weird, i KNOW!

work work work. the kids were not as great as Kak faizah's kids. guess what! Kak Faizah's kids still remember me okay.. early morning, reach school, see me already.. "teacher Nur!!" the next thing they ask, "Teacher Faizah nvr come again eh Teacher Nur?" hahaha. i miss them la.

till here alright. wont blog much for today. NOT FEELING WELL, thank you.

you didn't tell me u were out. when u said u were going home, i was confused + worried like shit. why u didnt tell me u were still out? sigh. nvm la.

gd night ppl! take care and sweetest dreams!! =))

things didn't work out well for me these few days. and i hope u understand.

9:11 PM