cause the moon doesn't need the stars

cause the steps i made are histories i write.

★ ★

Sunday, October 29, 2006

i dreamt of us again! wheee!!

and GOOD LUCK TO ALL TAKING 'O' LEVEL! WHEEE~!

1:20 PM

★ hubby bought me a cup corn! ★

Saturday, October 28, 2006

wheee~!

Dear bought me a cup corn!!! wheee!!!

hahaha! thanks dear for buying me a cup corn. i really2 appreciate it. u're full of surprises dear. hehe. he's my DOCTOR FOR THE DAY. wheee~! thanks alot sweets. and my cough is getting better since i ate that strepsils u bought for me. =D

anyways, went to prp with dear just now. watched Ganyut from dear's lappy. haha. funny story. but didn't really get the chance to watch it clearly cause of the sunlight. too bright. yeap. but nice story. hehs. i wanna watch it again.. =D can dear? after watching Ganyut. went to White Sands. studied there with dear till 2030. made our way back. hehe.. overall. i really enjoyed the outing today.

to my dearest you, thank you so much for the things u did just now. i really really appreciate it. and i'm sorry for that thing i did. =j missing u so much love. do take care kay? can't wait for the next time to meet u.. =) *huggs and kisses*

-aM[y]Ra-

10:37 PM

★ i'm bored.. really am.. ★

Friday, October 27, 2006

i'm super bored. and i don't know why.. so here goes...

i'm craving for a cup corn. i really want it!! get me one anyone? pleaseeee!!!

get me one please.. anyone.. pleaseee!!! =((

5:40 PM

★ ★

Pecinta Wanita

Ku Temukan Dalam Pencarian
Cinta Sejati Untuk Hidupku
Kurang Lebih Yang Seperti Dia
Ku Harap Dalam Cintaku

Ku Tak Mau Menjanjikannya
Pasti Bahagia Bila Denganku
Biar Dia Rasakan Sendiri
Betapa Gilanya Cintaku

(Korus)
Aku Memang Pencinta Wanita
Namun Ku Bukan Buaya
Yang Setia Pada Seribu Gadis
Ku Hanya Mencintai Dia

Aku Memang Pencinta Wanita
Yang Lembut Seperti Dia
Ini Saat Ku Akhiri Semua
Pencarian Dalam Hidup
Dan Cintaku Ternyata
Yang Ku Mau Hanyalah Dia

(Ulang Korus)

1:35 PM

★ miss him ★

so well. i dont know what to blog abt. but i wanna blog. 1st day of raye was fine. covered 4 houses. 2nd day only went to Kak Mas hse. i miss my sweetheart, and he gave me a kiss. actually i was supposed to kiss his head cause he accidentally banged on his bed frame. then u know la huh, toddlers. so i told him la.. "come aunty kiss.." then he came to me and suddenly kiss me.. on MY LIPS. haha. and i was like.. "okay.. come.. now aunty kiss ur head.." then he said.. "okay. can already.." then i was thinking. i'm sick. and he just kissed me. ooopppsss! haha. anyways, my sickness is still there. lucky getting better.. =D

i dreamt of me and dear yesterday night.. awww. so sweet. alalalala.. hehe. i guess i missed him too much. we're both busy.. can't say much. just hope to meet him soon.

dear, i know u're out for the friday prayers now. but when u're back. do read okay?
i miss u too much love.
and take care okay?
huggs and kisses,
-am[y]ra-

p.s: i think i'd be busy tonight.. having an open hse for the peternals side. so yea.. hope to see you real soon. =J i miss u love, i really do.. =(

1:08 PM

★ rayer is less than 48 hrs more. ★

Sunday, October 22, 2006

a day more, and it's hari raya puasa already. sheesh! it's like so super fast gitu lor! anyways, my throat have been giving me problems since yesterday. i didn't realise actually until just now. and i'm starting to cough. ouh, please. no.. don't.. i don't wanna get sick... raye is coming.. argh. and my pimple is getting smaller. whee! and hope not another one will come out. haha! *dearest, please. i dont want anymore to pop out! hehe*

i miss dear so much la..
don' know when will be the next time we'll meet.. hmmm..
it's okay.. and i think i gtg for now.. like got a lot of things to do gitu lorr!
=)) sweets! remember this.. I MISS YOU!!
hehe..
take care my loved ones.. muahhh!

last but not least.. wishing all a very big

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

hehe. big enough? well i hope so.
and to that particular family. blame me for all u care. cause i know it isn't my fault.
i'm just hoping u guys would forgive me for whatever wrong things i've done to the family.. makan minum dan segalanye harap dihalalkn.

salam sayang,
-yRa-

8:59 PM

★ whheeee hooo! ★

Friday, October 20, 2006

what a night we had yesterday!.. had practical in the morning. bio was super hard. after practical.. went out with the mbaas.. eL, nadiah and syaza. i was late due to the Heart CD. haha. anyways. we went to marine parade. 1st nad went to the kodak shop to get her photos done. then we went arnd for ahile. was almost time to break fast. so we went to KFC. all of us bought that cheezitos pocket meal. wheee! NICE!! hahaha. after that, went arnd again.. we bought a seven dollars ice-cream! yes, expensive! but that's for 3 scoops. but the one scoop ice cream cost 4dollars. so we decided to share on the 7 bux one rather then each for 4. haha! the ice cream taste almost like heaven! it was time for nad to collect her photos. and so she did. THEN! came across famous amos shop. we bought 200grams. haha.. we spend alot on food man! haha. we planned to go to the Vivo City. but somehow, we end up somewhere we don't want too. it's complicated. and i dont wanna say it here. but seriously. we felt like as if we were at some other dimension. scary man. really scary. we started to say some prayers as we walk. and to think that it's "malam jumaat" and we had that "ghost story-telling" in school during the quarantine time. nad was super hyper on that day. but when this happen. she was like a mute girl. and i went like, "nad tros aleh2 senyap sey.. hahaha!" and her only reply was.. "aku penat la.." right! hahaha. it was almost 10 by then. we were still stuck in that "dimension" then we decided to just take the train and head to city hall. that was when we were "back" and there's ppl arnd us. whee-ness! haha.. mama called. asked where we were. told her.. ayah and mama fetched the four of us. we told them the story. and it's hilarious la actually. haha! then we started to sing lagu raye that was on the air. and the song we've been waiting.. "ku pohon restu ayahbonda" everybody sang. hahaha! got home at arnd 11. yeahh. what a tiring night i can say.. but superb. haha!

ehh.. i gtg now. need to accompany yana to make her i/c..
take care ppl!!

dearest, i miss you!! *muahhhh!!*

hungss and kisses,
yRa

12:41 PM

★ feeling better ★

Sunday, October 15, 2006

gosh. i'm feeling so much better now rather than when i was posting the previous entry. forget about the previous entry. good bye to my past, hello to my new life. yes.

let's talk abt yesterday..
had a super happy day i can say. woke up at 8. was feeling rather moody due to what happen on fri. which shall not be mention here. then, received a msg. somehow, a smile was shown. thanks. you know who you are. got ready to go out. to meet someone. was ready by 0915. but i was just soo.. i don't know what.. and i decided to only go down at 0925. and so when i went out. saw him waiting already. i miss that face so much. just soo super much. the starting was kinda sad.. cause i kept on thinking abt the friday incident. and when he was talking abt it, tears were just getting prepared to flow down my cheeks. but somehow, i can't do it infront of him. and i hang on. he said those magical words to me, and there's a smile on my face. and from then on, i was myself. we went to the park, sat down.. and talked.. was arnd 1015 or so. headed back. damn! i miss him! really really miss him. anyways, tuition started kinda late. then ended tuiton at arnd 1 plus or so.. was tired.. but didnt seem to wanna sleep. prepared to go for iftar.. collected to char kuay from 940. made the tau suan.. fuhh! nice! haha.. actually i didnt taste at all. hehe. was super hot at jurong. my uncles hse i mean. yeap.. was the baby sitter, as usual. hehe. but this time i'm somehow mainly in charge of Mahirah. and the miracle thing was that.. she was kinda quiet.. haha. usually her siren can be heard arnd the hse. but not yesterday. and for once. i was able to SIT. haha! she's just different yesterday. hehe. and yea!! kak linda and kak radiah is pregnant!! wheee! i knew it that kak linda is pregnant. but i didnt know that kak radiah is also. abg imran didnt tell me all this while when we chat. naughty abg im! hehe. i got smooched by my dearest sweetheart, ilyas! hehehe.. he's another boy i miss. aunty really really miss u tau! anyways. got back at arnd 12 or so. yeapp.

cant seem to wake up for sahur just now. was just too tired! haha. woke up exactly time to get prepared for madrasah. i didnt memorise the two surah. got back home at arnd 10plus. switched on the comp. and sadly, i had to use the comp by sitting on the floor. if u know what i mean. haha. daddy removed the table.. somehoe the room is now under contruction. haha. dad's paintng the room now. hehe.. and for once i'm not helping. haha. anyways. after gt back from madrasah and after chatting awhile with dear, i was so tired that i sleep infront of the tv while watching my all time favourite, CSI. then.. i was awake by the ring of the phone. mum called. haha.. then after that i cant seem to sleep. shucks! parents got home. whee! new computer table!! whee! fixed it up.. and i hurt my thumb a little. hehehe. but i'm fine. really. i feel so ZEN.. wheee! haha. so happy with the new room i'm gonna have. hahaha. well, i think i better go now.. it's getting late.

to my dearest you: thank you for making your mind up. i really thought it would never work out. i'm really glad when you told me those magical words. thnak you so much love. thank you so much. no words can explain how thankful i am to have you by my side. have your rest dear. i don't want you to go to school with that sleep mode. hehe. love you dear! huggs and kisses, hunny.

lots of love,
take care ppl..!
-yRa-

p.s: i miss you!! muahhh! and yea.. iqah, go to sleep!! hehehe..

10:58 PM

★ sigh.. ★

Friday, October 13, 2006

sigh. i'm feeling down. very down. but, who cares right? sigh.. i just wanna say that graduation ceremony was okay. was fun. took a lot of pictures. but i'm really tired. yes.

since you know it now, i know everything will be different. here i am, crying again.. sigh.. who even cares right? how am i to face u? anything can be in your mind now. anything. argh.. forget it la kay. thanks for being there when i needed someone to pour my junks out. i'll never forget you. i love you.

love,
your greatest regret

4:33 PM

★ ★

Thursday, October 12, 2006

wheee~! so well, after i updated the previous entry. looked after the kid and went to get ready to go out. was supposed to go out with abg, abg friend and afiqah. but it ended that only me and afiqah made it. hehe. so we went to swensens, look at the cakes. then decided on what to buy.. but went to tm to just look and talk while walking. haha. just to kill time. hehe. Iqah darling, sorry eh i disturb u tadi.. about u know what (if you don't know, ask me kay?) hehehe. so cute la you. like your abg. oppps! anyways, after that - "you know what happened" incident, we went to swenswen and bought the cake. bought the Cookies and Cream Ice Cream cake. whee! nice! and if you're wondering who is it for.. it's for my dear parents.. thier birthday. today is officially mummy's birthday. sunday will be daddy's official birthday. and so we decided to celebrate both at once. send afiqah back. went home. but! made a pit stop at kakak pieja's work place. hehe. talk talk talk. went back at arnd 6.40? yeap. or is it 6.45? i dont know la huh. reached home. was few mins before buka. changed to home cloths and the azan was heard. we ate KFC today. whee!!! plus the cake bought for mum and dad. hehe. they were kinda surprised. and happy of course. hehe.. and done! that's what i did today..

i feel so happy, yet depressed. guess i've been keeping this to myself too. it haunt my mind every night. making me cry to myself. i'm not ready to tell you dear. cause i'm scared. i'm really really scared. and i hope u'd understand. sigh. i hope, God will show and give me a brighter path for me to carry on this life. ameen.

and to you dear: i'm really looking forward to meet you. it has been a long time since we last met. yes, i miss you alot. and i guess it's time for me to sleep too. good night sayang. loving you and missing you more as each day pass. take care love..

huggs and kisses,
wifey *Muahh!*

10:59 PM

★ whee~! ★

dear diary,

i've renew my blog. so everything will be fresh. first and foremost, i wanna say sorry to regular people who always come over to my blog to read my post, cause i've not been updating. school holiday for graduating classes started. we're told to have our self-study at home. i'm missing my friends alot. haha! and i guess, there'll be a new me. i'm hoping to be a better person now. with you guiding me, i hope to be a better person. and i must say thank you to that you for helping me all this while. i really appreciate your presence in my life. you made a difference in my life. anyways, o levels are super near. and the feeling is super scary. sigh! my madrasah exams are also coming and i don't know which to study. but i guess i can handle this one. insyallah. fasting month has great, only that certain days i got some stomachache. but i'm fine of course. i feel like a bird, just being freed. seriously. okay, i think i'll make it fast. i got a kid to take care of.

to my dearest you: i'm happy to know that you're still holding on this 5 yrs or so. i'm really glad that this day came atlast. i've been wanting you all this while. and i guess God return my call. thank you God. i really hope, this time.. it would be you. it's just so hard for me to explain it dear. i just want you to know that i really love you and that i need you in my life. and thank you, for waiting all this while. i'm sorry i hurt you. i am here now, for you. take care sayang, whether or not you're reading, only God knows. you were in my heart all along. atleast a space was left, for you. once again, thank you sayang.

love,
your first love.. -yRa-

3:27 PM