cause the steps i made are histories i write.
★ madrasah ★
Sunday, September 30, 2007
and in awhile i'll be going to geylang with dearest AMY PARKER and will be breaking fast with him.. wheeewhoooo! =D bubbye!
i miss my amy parker. =)) and i love himm... muahhh!
love,
yraJANE
3:27 PM
★ ★
Friday, September 28, 2007
i miss my boyfriend very much
and i want him to know..
its this BIG
=))
love,
yraJANE
3:39 PM
★ ★
till i blog again..
1:55 AM
★ shut up ★
* Nurril Hirfana <3>
2. Your relationship with her:
* my girlfriend, long lost one. heh
3. 5 Impressions you have of her:
cute
lovable
super smart
a leader
pretty
4. Most memorable thing she has done for you:
* forgave me for my stupid mistake
5. Most memorable words she said to you:
* let's be friends again.
6. If he becomes your lover, you will:
* wonder what happened to wan. HAHA.
7. If she becomes your lover, things she has to improved on will be:
* will you even me mine? haha! she's perfect or me.. just, maybe.. too tall. hahs!
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
* be hurt and try to figure out what i can do to fix it back
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
* erm.. i don know?
10. The most desirable thing you want to do for her now is:
* how i miss her
11. Your overall impression of her is:
* she's someone i can trust
12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
* erm? yeah..
13. The characteristic you love about yourself is:
* always wanna make friends
14. The characteristic you hate about yourself is:
* but when i make friends and when i see their faults and it hurts me, i'll hate them.
15. The most ideal person you want to be like is:
* GOD knows who
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
* continue caring and liking me, for i will do the same too =)
17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you
wish to know how they feel about you.
1. Amy Parks
2. Malia BF
3. Iqah
4. Syahir
5. Izyan
6. Natiara
7. fique
8. fatin
9. dina
10. zakiah
Who is no 6 having relationship with:
* nobody! heh!!
Is no.9 male/female:
* shemale. haha! female la!
If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing:
* coincidence or what? haha! sweet la sey! =p
When you last chat with no 3.:
* chat,i can't remember. tagged, just a few mins ago. heh
What kind of music that no 8 likes:
* malay?
Does no.1 have any siblings:
* 4 of them.
Will you woo no 3:
* why not? same face, different features.
How bout no 7:
* no 1 and 10 would kill me!
Is no 4 single:
* nope! newly wed! haha! bedek.
What's the surname of no 5:
* fathorrahman? haha! thats not even a surname.
What's the hobby of no 4:
* cycle, climb, go out with friends. did i get this right?
Do no 5 and 9 get along:
* erm, they're strangers
Where is no 2 studying at:
* Temasek Poly =))
Say something casual about no 1:
* the man i'd marry. the love of my life.
Have you tried developing feelings for no 8:
* haha! of course! she's a friend. =)
Where does no 9 lives:
* Tampines
What color does no 4 like:
* black and red?
Are no 5 and 1 best friends:
* nope. but they are the closest to me. haha!
Does no 7 like 2:
* erm, i dont know. but they talk though.
How did you get to know no 2:
* the sec 1 bunk mate who told a ghost story that i can never forget, yet.. i'm not scared. haha!
Does no 1 have any pets:
* he wish. but mum will never let.
Is no 7 the sexiest person in the world:
* fique! u sexy not? okay la.. maybe yes for no.1 .. haha!
okay. i'm bored, yet i can't sleep. i'm feeling as down as i can ever be. i'm doing the above just to kill time, and make me.. happier? but it didnt work. ouh shut up. only GOD knows how sorry i am. sigh. i dont know if i can even sleep tonight. maybe i shall just stay up the whole night? yeah.. unless i feel sleepy. i had only a few bites of rojak india just now. and a cup of tea. i got no mood to break fast. i scratch my arm, when there's no itch.. and there's a bruise now, due to friction. it looks like i burnt myself from the ironing machine. how nice. my stomach is grumbling now, due to lack of food. but i wont care much. cause i really dont have the mood to eat and satisfy my needs. i'm being so random, cause i got nothing else to say. i miss my jamilah and lela. i wonder how are they, i hope they are as perfect as they can be. i miss my NR0719, how their voices always fill the lecture theater. i miss my boyfriend, whose mental and social life is currently low, a person who once is very cheerful and full of laughter guy. i wonder where is HE. i wonder if he will even come back. i wish he will. i miss laughing with my babobehs, cause i've always never get a chance to join the fun. and how i'm always lost whenever i'm with them nowadays. i miss going to the park.. and stare at the sea.. i miss cursing my malia. and i know she miss cursing me too. and waiting for the day to meet me. and at this point of time, 0018hrs, my bird is chirping.
love,
the beautiful mistake.
12:30 AM
★ for you ★
Thursday, September 27, 2007
and believe me, it's true..
i wish for us to be forever..
and i never wish to break your heart,
even if i do.. i hope to fix it back..
love,
YJ
10:47 PM
★ hello ★
and i've cancel my friendster account. =)
and i wish to tell you how much i miss you.
6:03 PM
★ when i say no, i mean it. ★
Sunday, September 23, 2007
i'm mad at my parents..
yes, rarely that i will say who i'm mad at..
but for this.. no more..
yes, they are my parents..
but i got feelings too.
they ask me to go out to geylang with them again.
i said no..
they wanna buy me my raya cloths..
again, i said.. no..
i told them i can go buy myself some other time..
just give me the cash..
i told them this..
what for, the other time when i wanna go so much,
you end up not buying anything for me..
i was kind enough to cancel all my friends outing just for that..
and there u are, not buying anything for me..
i wasted my time with u.. for nothing..
i could have gone out with my girls.. enjoying break fast together..
that's the first reason..
the second is..
i'm sick..
i'm carrying a disease which GOD knows what.
i haven't see a doc yet..
and again, they dont wanna spare me some extra money just to go to private clinic.
and with this condition. u think i wanna go out?
no, obviously.
come on.. it itch like kcuf.
especially when i perspire.
u want me to look like a monkey in public?
if only my parents know what it feels like.
they're out already..
and dad said since i dont wanna follow
i won have any baju raye this year..
i dont care.. the most is i just won't turn up for raya..
and believe me, i love my parents..
i'm just sensitive for now..
and believe me, i'm crying at this point of time..
love,
yj
3:49 PM
★ geylang ★
Saturday, September 22, 2007
it was super crowded la sey!
i cannot tahan! haha! i like wanna pengsan!
it was supposed to be a Babobeh outing
AND CLTS outing..
but just too bad i cant make it for both..
sorry eh? =))
but hey.. i miss you guys okay? =))
i think i better go now. haha! i need to sleep! whee!
and and.. i had chilli crab just now!
delicious! =DDD
love,
YJ
ps : i miss my AP very very very much!
11:05 PM
★ first supp paper ★
Friday, September 21, 2007
FON that is.
it was.. yeah.. okay..
guess what.. i came totally ON TIME.
and.. hidayah waited for me. then we went to see our seat number.
so mine was.. 23 and hidayah's is 24..
okay.. so we went in..
and i found out that someone.. was siting on both our seats.
then.. lecturer asked me where's my seat.
i said there..
then the person sitting on my seat said, "there's seat number?? what's mine then?"
at that point of time.. i was like.. =______________________=''''''''
haha.. and hidayah was like that too. then okay fine..
i sat.. started to shade my name and everything..
THEN!!! the previous girl's WATER BOTTLE was on my desk.
and i went like.. "WTH?? i'm fasting!! i don't want people think differently!"
with my slumber face, i put the bottle under my desk. haha! super toot toot can?
yeah.. that's what basically happened.. haha!
okay till here..
bubbye!!
love,
YJ
12:17 PM
★ try it - i got it from AP =)) ★
Thursday, September 20, 2007
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
2:57 PM
★ tag replies!! ★
to IR :: lawa? haha. of course la, kater basirah! =p hehe! it was a short iftar. hehe. see you soon! miss you!
to tia :: hello you! hehe. you're loved too. and i miss you too! go out soon? =))
to adeq mar :: haha! why la u make me do this kinda thingy. haha! okay okay. thank you ehh!
to syafiq :: fiq!! yeah. hols are super long, and super bored la sey. haha!
to mimi :: alright. will update soon. thanks.
to Dearest AP :: haha! hello 1st gentleman! =)) i love you alot, can? muahhh!
1:12 PM
★ break fast ★
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
and after that...
i went to break fast with dearest Amy Parker at Geylang!
hehe! =))
we went to eat Ayam Penyet!
and we went around searching for PURPLE bajus! =))
cause i want it purple this year. wheee! hehe..
okay done!
I LOVE YOU BABY!
love,
YJ
10:53 PM
★ ★
Sunday, September 16, 2007
and getting BIG.
plus, coughs are developing.
WTH?
sick sick sick..
i miss my boyfriend so much.
and of course, i love him..
11:46 AM
★ ★
I'm Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you mygirlboy
- akon - sorry, blame it on me
11:20 AM
★ IFTAR!!!! =)) ★
Saturday, September 15, 2007
daym!! the food brought by individual families was superb!
shiok! haha! never have i ate that much. wheee! =))
and and.. zahin is super duper cute.. =))
the nephew who was born last year.
exactly A DAY after mine! =)
and and. he is very cheerful.
the more ppl he see, the more active he gets!
hahaha!
iftar was great! and guess what!!
everyone, yes!! everyone came..
all 70!
so u can imagine 70 people in my hse.
kecoh rabaks!
till here! wanna go sleep. haha!
byebye!
11:00 PM
★ LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT ★
yesterday was the last day of attachment.
yes, we enjoyed!
i didnt do much work.
alot of debriefs and all.
haha!
and the person i hate didnt work ystd.
LUCKY!
haha..
anyways.. remember the first day?
i said i got an ITE friend, name Syahidah?
well, we stayed together for the past 3 weeks..
and this was what we did for the last day.
yes, we enjoyed!
i didnt do much work.
alot of debriefs and all.
haha!
and the person i hate didnt work ystd.
LUCKY!
haha..
anyways.. remember the first day?
i said i got an ITE friend, name Syahidah?
well, we stayed together for the past 3 weeks..
and this was what we did for the last day.
syahidah basirah wahidah
yra in between idahS. haha!
cool eh?
haha!!
i miss them..
wheeee!
we exchanged numbers and everything..
one picture is missing.
me and siti..
its in her phone. and she didnt come ystd!! =((
nvm.. after work,
i went bakc to jy..
for the last NCC training.
i made them suffer.
i made them laugh..
and i'm happy..
haha!!
after that.. i went to meet dearest dear..
i went to break fast with him. =))
we went to Afgan there..
but we ended up breaking fast at AS-SALIHIN.
heh!
i ate my fav roti john!
dear ate his fav.. KUAY TEOW!
haha! after that. we went home. =))
wheee!!
and i love ystd!
i love dearest dear..
I LOVE NURSING!
oppps?
results are out..
i need to take 4 supp papers.
DAYMM!!
okay shut up!
i suck in theory..
OKAY BYE!!!
4:09 PM
★ choose ★
Thursday, September 13, 2007
or am i just an
good night..
11:13 PM
★ HAPPY FASTING. ★
first and foremost...
HAPPY FASTING!!!
haha!
i can't believe it's fasting month already..
it's just so fast.
i feel like as if i just met HIM yesterday.
well, i'm sure no one understands what the previous
sentence was about, true? haha! nvm..
i'm having sleepless nights lately..
and dear's having weird dreams..
what's up sey?!
i don't know.
the worst part was last night..
i slept early..
knowing i was tired, and
had to work morning shift.
BUT! i ended up rolling up and down,
left and right.
to and fro.
IRRITATING!
it's like..
i AM sleeping,
having very.. weird thoughts/dreams.
and i know my every move.
i was just too disturbed by
i don't know what..
and i was just toooo afraid to know what time it was.
main reason, cause it will make me feel worst..
i die die didnt want to see the time..
and so i was the early one to wake up for sahur.
well, i tried sleeping back after i wake up AGAIN.
ahhh bissh! forget about the sleepless nights.
i slept like a pig already when i got back just now.
work was, well.. kinda okay..
haha! i did alot of "new" stuffs that i haven't try before..
like, oral toilet.. and off plug!
yes yes! i did off plug!
is that COOL or WHAT!
haha!
i did alot of NGT today.
kinda boring..
and hey, i hate working with you.
bloody faggot. you're a regular there already.
and you're acting like that.
i was trying to be friendly..
and not like some student who show
their fcuked up face right infront of you.
for Gods sake, i was feeding a client.
and there you were telling others that
i haven't do para..
and i'm sure that's not the only time..
you've been acting like that since DAY ONE!
it's just so sway that my last week of attachment
is attached to you.
DAYM SWAY!
come on, you were once,
LIKE US.
don't try to be so bossy.
and you're just above me.
not as if you rank is sooo high!
i'll pass out becoming higher ranking then you.
you also talk to higher ranking staff
like your little brother and sister.
i seriously can't tolerate it anymore,
and guess what?
I'M NO LONGER SEEING YOU AFTER TMR.
i smiled at you, talked to you.
helped you..
and all i get is that, you ignored me.
if i see you tmr, my LAST day..
i'm not gonna talk to you, i'm not gonna smile..
i'm gonna treat you like how you treat me..
I PROMISE.
i'm there to learn.
not to be looked down at, bloody faggot!
it's the first day of fasting month,
and someone made me soo angry already.
i'm sorry God for acting this way..
but it's just so hurtful..
i hope You know..
may my life be more blessed.
love,
`yraJANE
8:11 PM
★ HELLO! ★
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
HAHAHA.
okay..
this week is the last week of attachment.
daym, i'm sure gonna miss my patients.
especially... that particular uncle.
fasting month is coming.
my last two days of attachment will be the start of fasting month.
the best thing is..
I'M WORKING MORNING SHIFT!
hahaha!
guess i have only a few hours left to spend my time
with dearest dear till fasting month starts.
heh!
=))
there's presentation today,
and i HAVEN'T even do my case study!
and i'm going out anytime soon!
haha!
last but not least..
happy 11th month to dearest dear.
i love you so much.
10:06 AM
★ happy birthday ★
Sunday, September 09, 2007
but because i went to HQ for the SSC POP
and BF's wedding..
i was unable to attend to birthday party and aunt's place.
and so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ABG A'AN!
HE'S 20! HEH! =)
i miss the old time i had with him..
when we were very very very young!
he's like my guardian angel.
dimana ada a'an,
disitu juga adanya basirah.
WAH SEY! mcm phm. haha!
now we're all big enough,
we've gone separate ways.
but i still love him like always!
=)))
12:19 PM
★ Girlfriend's Wed ★
it has been a long time since i met her.
and i think the last time was when i was SEC2.
very long, right?
yes, she's my pri school friend.
i remember those long phone conversations.
going gugugaga over newboyz.
esp tomok.
HAHAHAHAHA!
singing on the phone together.
secrets here and there..
going out, walking from this end to the other end.
haha! nice memories.
and and, going to Century Square to buy those fake nails.
HAHAHA! i'll never forget that baby! =)
okay put all that aside..
when i was otw there, i was nervous.
thinking how life would be
getting married so young.
but then again, thinking again..
it's the best for her.
i was sad though,
cause i was late for my BESTFRIEND'S WEDDING.
BUT!!! time was spent with great love.
iL reached way earlier.
she wanted to see the baby, just that..
she was scared to ask BF's mum.
hehe!
so she waited for me..
then after everybody got home,
and the ceremony is over..
i went up with BF, and iL..
and here he is..
Huwaidy Zufar
and what more, me and my best friend. =)
i miss her! =))
you're a wife and a mother already now,
take care of your love ones..
and and, I LOVE YOU!! hehe.
10:04 AM
★ today ★
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
cause i served 2 wonderful uncle
to bath today.
they were really nice.
one keep on saying that
i'm very nice to help him to the toilet.
and said,
my future husband would be
happy to have me.
another one, both chinese and malay
can't understand what he's talking about.
but his smile cheer us nurses up.
they made my morning a wonderful one. =))
today, i'm sad.
cause..
someone stole my money.
i don't wanna point fingers.
it's like 14bux.
i wanted to use coins today
so i can save the notes.
i wanted to save money!
but.. sigh.. forget it.
today, i'm sad again.
cause i dont have dearest to fetch
me from work.
*okay, no big for u guys*
he went to tekong,
for god knows what
and now he's at hq.
for SSC.
just received a msg from him
saying his hp was surrendered.
okay, whatever.
i wont be meeting him till sat.
that is also IF
i go for SSC POP.
today, i'm sad again again.
cause..
i hate friendster.
friendster always make me sad.
make me angry.
and god knows what more i feel.
i cant explain it.
i don't want to explain it.
i don' wanna think about it anymore.
till here.
afternoon shift tmr.
yay! *with no expression*
good bye.
10:19 PM
★ okay.. ★
Monday, September 03, 2007
haha!
=)
attachments have been great!
i like.
just that..
my feet cant stand the standing for long hours, get it?
okay good! haha!
yea, anyways..
i wanna thank all again, for wishing me a happy birthday.
advanced, during the day, and also belated..
thank you so much!
=)) i love you all!
kay i wanna sleep.
thanks to dear for everything!
yes, everything!
=))
9:25 PM
