cause the moon doesn't need the stars

cause the steps i made are histories i write.

★ yesterday ★

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

yesterday was a nice day to start with.
with the fact that i almost reach school late.
thanks to my brother la. who didnt feed the baby bird.
sorry mimi sayang and shane.
i planned to ride to school via train with them.
but because i'll be late. so i had to pass.
but eventually..
i reached the same time as them. haha!
lecture was fine. everyone was kinda lethargic.
toilet break was spend doing this.
(Dr Raj had to change the mic batt, so he took quite awhile)

reason why i had to take train instead of bus.
yes, shane injured his leg. haha!

i sit at the other corner. yes. that's my place.
very messy la my place. slipper and bag here and there. haha!

that's dayah. super concentrate la sey maen DS.
haha!

KAK JAM! haha. tgk ape je kak jam.
=p=p=p

and that's lela in green..

i was very bored la can? haha! anyways, lecture ended early. very early infact..
i planned to go home, i got 6 hours break, remember? BUT.. my dearest classmates missed me, so they dragged me to watch.. OM SHANTI OM. i was like a prisoner la.. they really hold me left and right.. haha! and yes, hindi movie.. me? hindi movie? wth?! no link.. BUT... after watching.. NICE LA SEY! i didn't cry.. cause, u imagine la cry in front of your friends. malu siolls! some more people pass us here and there. haha.

this was us.. watching OM SHANTI OM.
and yes, the white one u see is me. haha!

soon after the 3 hours sitting on the bench, the rest had lecture to attend. while me and lin, had another 3 hours break. haha! BUT, eventually. i made dayah lepak outside lecture with me.. we lepak at stairs sey. like no other place to lepak. haha. talk talk talk. lecture ended. dayah went home to prepare for btt. lepak with jam at stairs again. we super loner la. haha. but we enjoyed talking and playing DS. haha. and JAM, i scared la play game with u.. u shout like there's no tmr.

hehe! and it's nice hearing u talk agin. hehe. soon after. lela finished with her meeting. so she meet us at stairs. Liah then called up cause she was bored.. she wanna lepak with us. so she went up to stairs and lepak with us. she ended up playing DS too. haha!

time for practical! and, i was a lil lethargic.. so i didn't had much fun. hurhur! okay thats all! (((:

today was very much.. kental. i reach school at 12. was supposed to reach at 11 la.. to teman dayah. but lucky thing dayah got my mimi sayang. hehe. lepaked with mimi syg, dayah gf and ama at bench outside LTK. while my B&G is atteding lecture. i decided to tap and go for socio lect. had nice talk with the other three la. very nice! THEN... i had socio TUTORIAL. pfffft! i dragged myself to tutorial room okay. i entered expecting the worst. knowing Trina was my lecturer.. but.. upon reaching.. i was shocked. cause it wasn't Trina.. so, i said this instead of saying some other polite stuffs.. "what class is this?" haha! and one of them looked at me like wanna eat me up and said.. "erm, 19?" and i like.. "okay, correct.." and super slumber i go inside and sit one corner. HAHAHA! sumpah nak kene sepak. whatever.. i was lae a few min, but there was a bunch who still havent come. best ehh? then.. when the bunch came.. MY FRIEND WAS IN THAT CLASS! so at that point of time.. i was very much.. *woooohooo! aku ade kawan* you know, that kinda thing. haha. met up with BBG soon after. had briefing at lecture.. BUT, lecturer was sooo late, that we decided to just go home. the four of us did.. then atlast the rest did too. AHAHA! super kurang ajar. but i was very much, tired..

i'm going to Lyy's place later.. it has been a long time since i meet mama and nenek. i miss them

take care people

love,
yraJANE

5:24 PM

★ shocking news ★

Monday, April 28, 2008

MY SECONDARY SCHOOL TEACHER GOT MARRIED!
thanks khairun atika for the news.
and i'm very shocked till now, can?!
first he left Junyuan Sec..
and next.. HE GOT MARRIED LA SEY!
ouh, congrats Mr Jae.
it's funny how u always lie that you don't have any girlfriend.
haha!
so now there's Mr and Mrs Ong. COOL OR WHAT SIAK! haha.

anyways, i wanna give my best lucks to my DAYAH gf and AMY PARKER bf for their BTT. which falls tmr for Dayah and the following day for AP. hehe. GOOD LUCK OKAY! and must pass alright!! ((: make me proud.. chey.. like i'm the one taking gitu.

okay da..
BYE!

9:58 PM

★ monday ~~madness~~ laziness ★

with the fact that i slept late ystd..
i am proud to present..

dearest Dayah (Blue) made this for the BBGP and myself. her first attempt on picture edits la sey. haha. i slept at ONE because she didn't let me sleep cause she wanna send me this. and ouh, this friend of mine.. is very much of.. "kalau aku gemok, kau kene ikot gemok skali" so since she wasn't offline yet. she made me online too. HAHA. eh dayah ehh?? thank you very much gitu.

and on return.. i made for her this. amcm? SWEEEET OR WHAT?! mimi, tkmo jealous eh sayang.. haha. nanti kiter amek pic together abey feeling2, amcm?

anyways, i woke up feeling very sleepy.. yet refreshed. KLAKAR ehh. as usual.. walk to int with Lyy and Ain.. and meet Mimi sayang at int. sat beside my syg in the bus. i swear she love to irritate people with the light reflection from her watch. haha. i tried sleeping in the bus. but no hope, as usual. mimi syg was being so romantic gitu.. cause almost reaching school, she put her head on my shoulder. sweeeet kan? haha. and yes, we're gay.. but we're straight. =DD

bio lecture was alright. i admit that bio is the only module that i can understand fairly. haha! the rest.. i need time to digest la. i had my branch at South. as usual.. and nasi lemak! told u my appetite was back! hee. but jam didn't eat seyy. after eating was the time when i blogged the previous entry. and guess what? atlast i followed them to stats comp lab sey. haha. mcm paham gitu msk.. step amek tu module, but i sat at the back with mimi syg. hehe. and we ended up looking at adidas stuffs online.. and shane! the green adidas jacket u bought nice la sia!!! *jealous!* haha! after which. i got Nursing Lab. fun! catheterization. woohooo! just that. the male one very... haha. no comments.

we were supposed to have a last min lecture on pharmacology. and i was very much SLEEPY so i went home la. i think 98% of my class went home. and upon reaching home. i slept, again! i slept in the bus okay. i did it! woohoo!

i miss my muhd arrayn so much.. and he came today! gaaaaahhhhh! so i ended up awake instead of sleeping, he disturb me la. haha! and i had a hard time sending him back. he cried alot today! sorry ayan. akak miss you still. ((:

tmr i start school late. YAY! diam la.. SIX hours break. pfffft!

love,
yraJANE

p/s: i miss you very much.

7:43 PM

★ lepak-ing ★

i am at school now.
using dayah's lappy.
while she is otw back,
cause she need to change from slippers
to covered shoe.
kesian dayah..
she left her lappy for me to hold.
i'm with jam and lela. as usual..
very bored la, can?!
me and jam meeting lecturer for project
at 12. lela? she'll need to be alone for that few mins.
hehe. sorry eh lela.. tunggu dayah dtg balik. (:
i'm very much bored now.
next class will be at two.
):

and jam and lela got stats at 1. i'll be with dayah till 2.
that is IF she comes back at 1. haha.

okay da.. bye!

love,
yraJANE

11:15 AM

★ Adult Nursing ★

Sunday, April 27, 2008

i'm doing my Adult Nursing ICA now,
and i swear i can't get anything. HAHA!
michelle!!! help!!!
pffftt!

anyways, i was thinking..
should i create a friendster account,
AGAIN?

hmmm...

okay, back to project. BYE PEOPLE!
and tmr is very boring. HAHA!

love,
yraJANE

8:29 PM

★ today, is saturday. ★

Saturday, April 26, 2008

i had a busy saturday, with the fact that i didn't go to EAST Meeting.
i had breakfast with cousin and lepak session with him.
thank you very much cousin! i appreciate the rides to and fro. ((:
met him at around almost 8. i got home at around 1130.
it was a refreshing morning! i had a rough night, so it helped alot.
thank you very very very much cousin!
i got home, and i straight away slept on the sofa. haha.
woke up several times, VERY HOT LA.
woke up at 3, i think..
went out at 4, to fetch mummy.
we went to REX for NASI AYAM! alamak, my dad knows me so well gitu!
JAM, i ate nasi ayam!!! haha. my appetite will be back up again, i hope. wheee!

we were supposed to go to funTasia, but in the end.. the road towards there was soooo packed, and we decided to keep left and exit. haha.
went to giant, shopping baby!
i got myself a white half cardigan ((((:
and i got a surfers paradise, havai-like slippers.
that is shared btwn me and my twin brother. haha.
got home at nine,
and here i am.. watching APM. (:

there's meeting tmr!!
so i need to turn in soon. hehe.
after APM that is. hurhur.

ouh, and Lyy gave me a new name..
CHIARINA which is an Italian name
with the meaning of Bright/Clear.

haha

love,
yraJANE

p/s: you're missed!

10:28 PM

★ next week. ★

Friday, April 25, 2008

i want a candle light dinner

i'm happy that my uncle has already been discharged!
ALHAMDULILLAH!!
anyways, next week will be very much a slacking week,
i think so laa.
i mean, adding to the "make-up" lectures..
i only got 12 hours of lesson the whole week.
i got 4 hours break on monday,
SIX hours break on tuesday.
and i start late on wed.
boring kape seyy.
thursday is obviously holiday.
and friday. grrrr! 2 hours break!
GERAM AKUUUUU!

ouh! just now me, liah, lela and jam.. we plan wanna go karaoke! haha. dayah, join pe!! tapi bile? wait long long laaa.

okay bye, aku nak tgk bawang putih bawang merah.
classic!

love,
yraJANE

9:15 PM

★ the camera ★

warning!
this is a long entry.
why? cause i wanna type everything out! (:

ystd was just sooooooo funny la. though i was very much tired cause i start school at FOUR and i was very much lazy to go to school, but i had to cause 4 hours of lab. HURHUR. reached school kinda early. met the others. and again, i was MISSED. awwww. i do have nice classmates you know. (: but the irritating part is when people shout ur name from one end to the other, like how i usually do this, "NINA!!!!!" even though she's just 5 steps away from me. HAHAHA! huggs here and there.. went to bio lab.

waited kinda long for lecturer to come. and surprisingly, it's not the lecturer who is supposed to teach us. shocking gitu.. and it's a part timer who taught us. Dr Pon, u don't like us, just say laaa! and Dr Wong, he's super random la! he took the attendance and after the last person's name, he said, "i see some of you got pimple on ur face" we were like, "HUH??" and ended up laughing. then he was telling us that he's a skin doctor. explains why he was riving that comment. haha! and guess what, after class. i got his name card la seyy! i told him about me having eczema, and he said.. "if it develops again, come to me" he said the cream polyclinic give doesn't do much. sickening. haha. he laugh upon seeing the cream okay. so bad siaaaa. he ended class an hour early, so slacked outside LTK with those bunch.

met Dayah and went for my make up class. my darling (Mimi) was there too. as i've said, i know half the people in their class, so i had no problem communicating. the class was very much like mine la. soooo noisy. haha. poor thing la their lecturer. i was basically slacking la. cause they were doing their hypocount test. after the 2 hours lesson, we were tired and lazy, so we took the lift down. darling was playing with the lift sensor when the lot of us were shouting at her to stop. after i pulled her in, suddenly.. someone said, "ehh, got someone looking at us" i swear all of us though it's te lecturer.. but there's nobody la seyy. we asked her who was looking, and she said, "the camera" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! tell me about it la sey. super funny til we laughed our way out to the atrium. hahaha!

the ride home with darling, shane and susu was fine. and thanks darling for the Ribena! ((: sumpah kau da le jadi mataer aku. haha! we got a single deck bus, so it was very much bumpy! i tried sleeping, but can't la, durhh.

today was very much BORING. scool started at 8. and i reach super early. GUNDU! i reached at 0715 la seyy! obviously, the door is still locked. haha. lepak alone at bench. nursing lab was just practice. did NGT insertion and aspiration and LAVAGE! and i did that gravity magic. WOOHOOO! cool or what siakkk!

anyways, lecture was postponed!! i DON'T LIKE! it's postponed next week okay! next week fri, I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE ANYTHING! bbbbaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh! and just because of this lecture, i need to come to school. pfffffffft!!! okay la, fine la. irritating.

i'm am very much tired now, cause i woke up extremely early, with the fact that i slept early ystd. haha!

okay BYE!

love,
yraJANE

2:22 PM

★ my brunei boyfriend ★

Thursday, April 24, 2008

i miss this kid so much laa! ouh, aint the top pic cute? he saw my pic and wanted to have the same face expression. haha. i swear i miss him. he's getting bigger now, and i think he won't need me anymore.
*rejected*
but kakak miss you okay ayan?

my second boyfriend, Wu Zun.
Hama Kimi, watched. Romantic Princess, Watched. Tokyo Juliet, hmmm. pending. haha. anymore of your dramas dear?
*bbual mcm paham*
i swear i love this brunei guy of mine. haha. *again, mcm paham*
yes, he's a brunei born. explains why he's just soooo handsome!

and i miss alot of people! baaaahhh!

love,
yraJANE

10:22 AM

★ i wish ★

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

uncle is getting better!
yayyyyyy! *Alhamdulillah!*
i visited him after school. (:
and i swear it's hard to find CDC. haha.
but i like that place laa!
only that, i can't imagine myself working there..
so.... scaryy!

velocity, first time siolss.
sumpah aku jakon.
hahaha! diam laa.
it was then the four of us. cousins friend came over.
sumpah aku tk kene tempat gitu.
ouhhhh,,
i didn't get my nasi ayam. )))):
instead, we ate at BK.
thank you cousin for finishing up. hee. ((:

went back to tamp soon after the rain stopped.
thank you people. (:
aku mcm VIP mane smpi 3 org antar blk. haha!
but really, thank you.

after a few mins.. *ring ring*
they needed help..
so i had to meet them again to go to afgan.
haha. funny la them.
so slacked awhile..
with fajreena this time. haha.
lepak-ed at McD Tamp East.
moved to faj's place.
lepak-ed again..
then cousin send me home again.
thank you very much cousin! ((:

and thank you syg for sending me to school. (((:
i miss seeing you sleep in the bus. hehe.
proper meet up soon okay? (:

till here..
ouh, i start school at FOUR tmr.. best kapeee.
ending time also bessst kapee gitu..
shut up laa.

love,
yraJANE

10:28 PM

★ fall for you ★

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

today was NO better. haha. so much of, nak bgn lmbt.. atlast i woke up around 7. tried to sleep back, but FAT HOPE. haha.
i went to school like on the dot for me to go out like that.
took bus from my hse bustop.. saw Faridz (cousin) inside the bus.

him: eh, asl kau naek dari sini?
me: rmh aku kat sini kan, beng.
him: tapi kau slalu naek dari int pe.
me: alah, aku tau tk akan crowded at this time. naek dr sini uhh.

his friend (i know him since last yr): uh, kau tinggal sini?
me: a ah, asl?
his friend: siak tk pernah nmpk kauuuu.
me: asl, kau tinggal area sini?
his friend: a ah, blakang nie je.. block 8.. *i forgot*
me: ouh eh? haha. okayy.. *plugs in earpiece*

i reached school exactly on time. PHEWWW gitu. jam woke up very late. haha. very cute sia.. first person she called was me. it was like 0915hrs when she called. and class starts at 10.

G: bassss! aku baru bgn!!!!!!
P: HUH??? KAU BETOL PERRRR?!?
G: a ahh! mcm neee?
P: entah kauu. mcm ne?
G: aku msk 2nd hour uhh..
P: okay kay.. da kau gi mandi sume sane.
G: okay.. jumpe kau nanti.

cute or what sia. haha! bio was kinda fun today. haha. i love bio.. *mcm phm* well, i do la actually. ate Gecko's spicy tuna spag. i didn't finish it up though. so kental la me. i still want my nasi ayam! bahhh! okay tmr i eat nasi ayam. yay! (((: pharm tutorial was.. erm, everyone knows the answer, so yeah. haha! thanks to michelle! and i got 4 hours break. though an hour was spent with mentor. YIPPPPE! money thingy settled. ((((: i happy la seyy. and the rest of the hour was spend with Lin talking about our life. hehe. this shall be my every tuesday routine. baaaaaaaah! prac was effing fun laaaa! i swear we laughed like almost 3/4 of that 2 hours. the teacher super shiok la seyyy! not bad for a SGH Deputy Director. then i suffered from stomach cramp due to the laugh. bengsss. haha! but i swear it feeeels soo good, esp the part about the suction thingy. wahh. sumpah tk puas hati. hahaha! last 30 mins was spend talking about random stuffs. wah nice siaa. haha. got back with jam! we were both tired la. haha. so i was half asleep in the bus. got home exactly at NINE.

tmr shall be a very short day, and i swear i feeel like bringing file only, BUT i'll be riding with cousin tmr.. so file won't be my choice. heh. and dearest dayah will be alone, so i shall come at 11plus? just to teman this GF of mine, ouh how romantic, eh dayah ehh. haha..

okay till here people..

love,
yraJANE

because tonight will be the night
that i will fall for you, over again
don't make me change my mind
i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a ~~girl~~ guy like you is impossible to find.

10:11 PM

★ Close - Westlife ★

Monday, April 21, 2008

Shane:
Across the miles, it's funny to me
How far you are, but how near you seem to be
I could talk all night just to hear you breath
I could spend my life just living this dream
You're all I'll ever need

Chorus (All):
You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love, someone to hold
When I'm in your arms, I need you to know
I've never been, never been
This close

Bryan:
With all the loves I used to know
I kept my distance, I never let go
But in your arms I know I'm safe
Cause I've never been held and
I've never been kissed in this way
You're all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need

Chorus (All):
You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love, someone to hold
When I'm in your arms, I need you to know
I've never been, never been
This close

Mark:
Close enough to see it's true
Close enough to trust in you
Closer now than any words can say, yeah

All:
And when I'm in your arms, I need you to know
I've never been, never been
This close

Chorus (All):
You give me strength (you give me strength)
You give me hope (and you give me hope)
You give me someone to love, someone to hold
When I'm in your arms, I need you to know
I've never been, never been, oh no i swear
This close

8:56 PM

★ monday blues ★

today, is monday.
i went to school with ain, mimi and lyy!
so long u know never meet lyy.
and i swear i miss my mother naia banks.
and after not going to school for 4 days (inc sat&sun)
i feeeel so, LOST. haha!
and my classmates miss my noisy voice!
haha!
and my make up class is on THURSDAY,
SIX TO EIGHT in the evening. baaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
and fri starts at EIGHT in the morning.
best kape basirah.

BUT! lucky i can stuck myself in Dayah's class.
atleast half of the people in the class know me. whee!
going home? err, MIMI! balik ngn aku ehhh! pleasee.
kau kan darling aku, bole eh girlfriend?
yay, syg kau!
*mcm phm*

ouh, i feeeeel so tired today la. bio was alright, as usual, week 2 already, tunjuk belang. all very noisy. haha. i couldn't concentrate either. HURHUR. an hour break, did nothing. just wait outside tutorial room. HURHUR. tutorial was.. o to the k to the a to the y. had 2 hours break, but my B&G got stats tutorial, so they got only 1 hour break. so we go mkn, i ate wedges only. HURHUR. no appetite la, dumbbbb. i've not eaten proper meal since ystd. haha. prac lab was nice. i was A LITTLE kecoh, that was when, suddenly, afew people went like, "ahh! bas, i miss your talking, 4 days seyy!" haha. and i went like =.=" i guess i DO make a difference in the class. wow! haha. pharm lect was no better than last week's one. as DRY as ever, more over.. LTH1 got no network. irritating like tooot toooot. haha.

went back with jam. since dear didn't fetch me. otw back, got to know that my uncle got admitted. 0_0 like that. just hope he'll be fine. fight the disease uncle! will visit him soon. TTSH, here i come! ((: but i guess it'll be on wed i'll visit him. tmr end school at EIGHT larrrr. yes, i got 2 days to open my eyes big till eight. haha. irritating.

okay, till here i blog
i am happy cause i'm ABSOLUTELY back on earth! ((((:

love,
yraJANE

6:38 PM

★ happy birthday ★

Saturday, April 19, 2008

before the day ends,
i want to wish CIK ELA, and SUSU (dyan star)
a VERY BIG..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

may you both be in good health always.
good luck in ur future endeavor (:

makan session with family was fun.
it has been a long time since we did this. (:
galileo again.
i love it. japanese cuisine again for me.
and orange soda! i get it this time aye.
*hint hint to cousin*
lepak at mak long's house after that.
watched soccer.
and got back.

tmr will be another day out with family.
family gathering ((:
i think i'm prepared to meet cousin.
i have faith in myself!
yay! ((:

till here people

love,
yraJANE

11:46 PM

★ s.o.r.r.y ★

this entry shall go to my JYNCC girls NCOs, who have Passed Out recently & the Future NCOs,

i wanna say sorry for not being in uniform on thursday.
and for not being myself on thursday.
some may realised for what was going on in my life,
but to those who didn't know.
i apologize for not joining you guys in those very last happy moments.
i just hope you guys understand okay?
and not that i didn't appreciate you guys,
i appreciate you bunch of people alot.
thanks for making JYNCC Girls from bronze to GOLD (:
thank you for having faith in the unit
and helping me out with those impossible
stuffs that i wanted to do when i was a cadet.
do come by some time and see you cadets SHINE!((:

and to the Part Cs,
do continue with the good work that
your seniors have given to the unit.
polish up the cadets
and make JYNCC Girls even a brighter unit, alright? ((:
and, for Spec course,
give the best of yourself alright?
and please be prepared for the C&C Test
which is still in KIV of the date.

i appreciate everyone of you. (:

love,
yraJANE

4:00 PM

★ my baby bird died ★

with what happened recently,
i got something to add.
my baby bird died on thurs night.
the smaller one.
i observe it grow.
it seems that it's lacking in something.
usually, in a few days.
it should be big.
but i wondered,
why is it still so small.
and it can lift up it's head already.
for the size it was in,
it should not be able to lift up his head.
means to say. it's not normal.
and again, i had that feeling.
and true enough, it happened.
it died on thursday evening.
it was okay in the morning.
still standing tall.
how sad.
i'm very much worried for the bigger one.
we've seperated it from the parents and other older sibling.
i do think that's its being abused.
sad.
and i just feed it a few min ago.
i think i feed it too much.
i can see that it's VERY bloated. ((:
but it keeps on wanting food!
oppps.

today, i'm not going anywhere.
i am la..
just following family.
((:

tmr will be the another day to meet cousins and uncles and aunts.
and, my nenek. ((:
and i hope by then, when i see thier faces.
i'll be fine. (:

till here

love,
yraJANE

11:48 AM

★ Semua Tenang Kita ★

Friday, April 18, 2008

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

9:29 PM

★ i'll miss you ★

i didn't go to school today.
i got more important things to attend to.
and to those who know.
thank you very much for the every encouraging word.
i appreciate it very much. (:
i'm coping well.
i'm happy now,
he's safe in God's hand.
it's time for me to smile.

and to my dearest cousins,
stay strong.
all of us will miss him truly.
the bunga api moments
swimming pool moments.
and thank you
for all those nice things you gave us.

frankly, i don't know how to face my cousins.
i need to give them time.
esp you.

i shall have my rest now.
take care people.

love,
yraJANE

4:34 PM

★ yesterday ★

Thursday, April 17, 2008

yesterday, i reaced school right on time. phewww!
socio was, no comments..
ate rojak. nice. haha.
pharmacology lect.
very very SOFT and DRY.
i swear i can sleep.
but i didn't okay! ((:

cousin fetched me from school to AH
(he didn't tell me he got a bike already)
i think he purposely wanna surprise me la.
thank you cousin, for fetching me and the surprise. ((:
the journey there was, funny to me, cause the helmet was soooo big.
and when he speed through, i feel like my helmet going to get blown away. haha
so i kept on holding on to my helmet.
sound very stupid sia.
cousin, next time, remember okay? i'm a size S (:

upon reaching.
i was amazed by the look of AH
(my first time going there okay!)
i shivered though.
went up to the ward.
my uncle,
i expected to see something like that.
i shan't comment further.
i'm just afraid.
especially when i was there when the Dr updated the family about his condition.
i was telling myself to stay strong.
i didn't dare to speak to anyone, not even to my cousin.
i totally shut myself down.
after a few mins...
i got back to earth and atleast gave a smile.
went down, to just sit with cousin.
went up again.. bro reached soon after.
my close relations came soon after working hours.
alot of people. really.
by then i was kinda.. okay..
i can smile and talk. (:

everything happened to fast.
i didn't expect things to go this way.
though everyone seems soo relax..
esp THEM..
i'm sure, they were very down.

i would do the same if i were them.
i'm very araid now..
*God, let him recover fast, please..
i'm begging..*

i reached home at around nine plus.
my journey home by car was just spent thinking of him.

i had a hard time sleeping. i swear.
i woke up several times.
checking on the time.
next thing i knew.
my alarm rang
as usual. 5.30am.
i felt something was not right..
yes, i went to the toilet,
with confidence, bringing the thing.
and because i knew it so much..
i knew it's time..
my menses came.
haha!

then i suffered from stomach cramp till 8.
tell me about it la sey!
now, i'm still sleepy.
and if i don't feel better.
i'm not going for POP.
i wanna go hosp today.
anyone wanna accompany?
please. )):

till here..
take care people..

love,
yraJANE

9:59 AM

★ those things ★

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

school started 2 days ago. i sound so free now till i can blog.
why?
cause i dont take some modules, remember?
and therefore, i start school at 1pm today. and i got only 2 hours of lessons.
sounds stupid, but real.
nothing to be happy about,
esp when my dear uncle is in MICU right now.
*God, i want him to recover fast, please.*
but i got 2 things to smile about.
firstly, i've stepped down as a chairman.
secondly, i'm not schooling tmr.

i will be visiting my uncle today after school.
reason why only i can visit him today was because i end school so late.
esp ystd. i ended at EIGHT. lucky thing the prac lab was fun.
thanks dear for fetching me on this 2 days.
(:

i wanna get ready for school.
i wanna visit my uncle.
i wanna pass this sem.

love,
yraJANE

10:03 AM

★ is it me? or is it just me? ★

Saturday, April 12, 2008

well, why am i sooo emo?
ask my brain.

me: brain, why i'm emo?
brain: cause u're just a lil down of something that u can't express to anyone.
me: okay.. what am i to do?
brain: it's either u tell people, or u just feel like this until u forget about it.
me: okay.. i think i've told someone, but it's still ain't working.
brain: haiya.. u shut up la bitch.

and i'm much more emo now cause my brain calls me a bitch. how rude, you cerebrum!!
anyways, my motive to update again was that.. i wanna say something important to me but not to the others..

i think, i'm forgotten by some few.

that's all i got to say. thank you for reading my crap. i'm a bitch. i know. =)

love,
yraJANE

6:03 PM

★ ~~ketchup~~ catch up ★

today was supposed to be a day out with syahir!
but, i got ALOT to do. sorry cousin, soon alright?
anyways, i've beeen sooo busy with i don't know what..
and i think i got ALOT to catch up with.
from cik ela, to budak kecik..
from delfina to my tons..
from my fantastic BBG to my noisy classmates.

school is starting soon, i'm gonna meet my BBGs and classmates.
but the others? i think i'll be much more busy then ever.
and how often can i meet this bunch of people?
i have no idea!
and school? i've never been this lazy to go to school.
thanks to socio that is..
yes, i'm retaking it again..
why i can never pass my socio?
ask my lecturer about that.
i've tried my best. but i guess they didn't see it.
or maybe, they plan to never make me pass.
i don't know.
sounds stupid, but maybe real..
maybe they just wanna expel me from school.
just do it la. don't make me go through this shit.
and the most irritating part, i'll only be taking 5 new modules
when the rest of my classmates are taking NINE.
on top on that 5, i got my 2 repeated modules.
means to say, 7.
so tell me about it? next seem, i'm gonna crack my brains.
that is IF i CLEAR my papers on 1st sem.
God, help me overcome this.
i may be stupid. but i tried to be clever.

love,
yraJANE

4:18 PM

★ today ★

Friday, April 11, 2008

today, i am very very very tired.
i'm glad that Dayah is happy now.
she's seen me in uniform.
and how i handle my cadets.
i am very happy with the fact that
i got a fake rose from dear as a gift. ((:
(i like fake flowers more then life ones)
dinner at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf was nice.
i had Spicy Tuna Linguine (i think it's spelled that way)
dear had Chicken Bologniese.
and we had LARGE pure caramel ice blended! (: very very nice!
and very very spicy sey the thing i ate.
haha. but nice! (:

okay i need to go to bed now.
i swear i want to sleeeeep!
no no, i NEED to sleep!
byebye!

love,
yraJANE

p/s: happy 18th!! i love you baobei! ((:

10:33 PM

★ SUNDAY ★

Sunday, April 06, 2008

today is sunday, sunday is the day when there's alot of wedding.
i am going to TWO later.
this is i think my second time going out for wedding this year. haha!
i'm wearing my fav black pink dress.
it's funny how i like purple so much but i dont have any dress in purple.
thanks to mummy la. she always buys purple for herself and mine pink.
must change to purple this year okayyy, mummyy?? =DD thank you. haha!

affirmation was indeed SOOO BORING! lucky thing rau and dearest and fique was there. with jh too. haha. after affirmation, went back by JY bus. dear tagged along.
went to S11 for dinner. dear had Mee Kuah. i got myself a Nasi Goreng. i didnt finish it though.
cause there's also rojak! haha! and we got honey-dew sago for dessert (substitute for drinks)

i'm halfway from packing my bag. i don't know what to bring actually. FORGET ready la sey, so long never go camping. WAKWAKWAK!
i'm in an average mood where by, i can joke and be serious and down at the same time too. why?

ask my brain about that. hurhur!

bye. this will be my last post till tues.

love,
yraJANE

12:05 PM

★ okay. let's update! ★

Saturday, April 05, 2008

wednesday was spent at home, i think.. ouh yes!
i think i went to eat with dearest. thas how far i remember.
watch FIRST episode of Romantic Princess at night.
wow.. attracted me so much la..
no, not the story.. my 2ND Boyfriend! =DDDD
Wu Zun laa! hee. soooo handsome!!
soooo MINE! oppps.
byy, tkmo jealous. heeee!
and guess what, i even dreamt of becoming anak org kaya sia!!!!

so dasyat. the next day was basically watching Romantic Princess online.
haha! how nice. =D
the story line is just as similar to Hana Kimi. sooo nice la!! =DDD
mali called up, as usual.. LEPAK AT SIMPANGG!
rau, khai, ameer was there too. haha. and
thanks khai!! for the treat! =D
got home and went online. did some stuffs.
slept!! =D i slept kinda late though. i was suffering from....
headache and stomach ache. haha!
i think i was too full or what..

woke up the next day(ystd that is). feeling the same.
wahh. dear delivered some PANADOL EXTRA, cause mine finish liao laa!
i took the time to wait for him to finish solat to let myself be FINE again.
after which, i got ready and went for BAG HUNTING!
thanks dearest for the company.
i bought a Yellow Bag, nice! heee.
dear got one for himself too.
reebok.. always reebok. haha!

got home. watch Romantic princess till the last episode. by just TWO day. i complete watching it.. wahh..
and i swear the story make u wanna kill atleast somebody. haha. but in the end..
everything is like you know.. "and they live, happily every after..."

haha! okay i wanna prepare fo AFFIRMATION now! wheee.
and i'm wearing no.3! =.=
thought it's nice.. but still.. i'm prepared to suffer with heels!! wheee! okay diam la.
byebye!
and affirmation always make me think back my past. and how i said, "Morning Sir *blushes*"
and i got a smile from him... ahhhhhh. i'm melting... DIAM LA!

love,
yraJANE

p/s: i wanna go bintan, please! =P

10:49 AM

★ BBGP outing! ★

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

yesterday was AWESOME! as usual. i'm the first to reach Dhoby Ghaut. called lela and jam. jam didn't pick up. lela and dayah was still in train. haha. so i just waited. upon reaching. lela said that jam will be reaching at TWO cause she just woke up. i laughed sey! how cute! anyways, while waiting.. we were hungry!! so since i got points to clear, i "treat" the B's with the points i collected. hee. *sorry G, we were super hungry*

anyways, after so.. dayah wanted to buy a flip flop so much (cause her's got stolen. and some how.. it's scattered around her area. haha!) so we searched. being her. so cerewet (same like G), we still didn't get a ncie one. haha! we decided to buy the tix first.. G reached soon after. haha. walk here and there. i's time to get ready for movie, so we bought nachos and popcorn. and 2 cups of ICE LEMON TEA! haha. nice! G keep on dropping the Popcorn when we're walking to the cinema. haha! Lela got an Apil Fool Pranked by her workmate. HAHA! we were absolutely noisy when we got in. alah, haven't start anything. noisy la.. hehe. alot of things were raised up somehow.. G keep on looking at people entering. haha! and i was like.. "oi jam! stop looking!" haha.

we watched SHUTTER btw, i was seating beside Dayah.. and u can imagine how scared she was. haha! and i swear i felt like her BF cause she was leaning on my side instead of Lela and she kept on predicting what will happen next, and i need to explain stuffs to her and she keep on saying, "i'm the director" and i kept on giggling cause she was always getting ready to cover her face with her jacket. haha. how cute. my friend, durhhh! okay diam..

Lela needed to go home for her Sister's "Jalan kahwin" or something like that la the name. while BGP went for a walk to Orchard. =D kesian kan Dayah tk pernah pass Istana and was all the way to town. haha. we found a nice flip flop at Far East atlast! and me and Dayah bought a super nice top at FarEast too. wah.. i spend money like paper ystd. haha!

G took 5 home and me and Dayah took 7. i reached home at almost 11. haha. blame the bus for reaching so late! =p=p=p

okay, picture coming up.. some can't be loaded. blame blogger. wakwakwak!

i enjoyed this day to the fullest! and i want this more!! =D

love,
yraJANE

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY G (JAMILAH)!!! =DD
and i miss my TONS alot! =((((

11:03 AM

★ Memang Khilafku ★

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Memang khilafku
menyayangimu
memang khilafku
mencintaimu
tapi ku tahu semua itu
tak akan kembali lagi

Bukan ku pinta
segunung janji
tidak ku harap
sinaran ini
cuma ku ingin
setulus kasih
kasih yang kekal selamanya

(Chorus)
Oh...oh ~~Syakilah~~ Basirah
senyum mu enggan pergi
tawa mu.. mengiringi
wajah mu ku terbayang
hadir mu dalam mimpi
seumpama bidadari
potrait mu.. ku tatapi
mengharap kau kembali

memangku rindu saat bersamamu
memang tak mampu melupakanmu
tapi ku tahu semua itu
tak akan kembali lagi

selamat tinggal pada kenangan
selamat tinggal pada igauan
terima kasih aku ucapkan
untuk percintaan ini

(Chorus)
Oh...oh ~~Syakilah~~ Basirah
senyum mu enggan pergi
tawa mu..mengiringi
wajah mu ku terbayang
hadir mu dalam mimpi
seumpama bidadari
potrait mu..ku tatapi
mengharap kau kembali

Memang ku rindu saat bersamamu
memang tk mampu melupakan mu
tapi ku tahu semua itu
tak akan kembali lagi

selamat tinggal pada kenangan
selamat tinggal pada igauan
teriam kasih aku ucapkan
untuk percintaan ini

okay. this song is stuck in my head for now. so JIWANG. yes i know. and soo mat and minah. ouh whatever.. it's nice. haha! okay i'm going offff sooon! whee!!

love,
yraJANE

10:08 AM