cause the steps i made are histories i write.
★ confessions - bloodshot eyes. ★
Friday, December 05, 2008
i took a break from school today. yeah, i'm at home. yesterday was too much for me to take. from morning till night.
i slept at 2 the night before. i put the alarm at 0800.
i woke up. i slept again.. i dreamt of you. i woke myself up..
it was 0830. i got 30 mins to prepare and go out in order for me to not be late for school.
so, i did everything so fast! really. after i bathed. eventually abg heard my voice (he was inside the toilet) he said, "you're not out yet? what time you going to school? want me to send you?"
being late, i said.. "i start at 10. if you wanna send, i'm okay with it." so i took my time to prepare. after which when he got out. he slacked. time check. 0915. i ask him if he;s sending me to school. he laughed and said, "no la. it's dangerous." i wasn't in the mood due to what happened the night before. so i just went out soon after. i flagged a cab. and there goes my 15bux.
statistics test.. me and dayah went in on time. switched on the comp. logged in. prepared the system. 1205hrs "you may begin" everyone started to type the data in. so did we. just when we wanted to get the figures.. a pop up came out. stating it can't proceed cause.. long story. and at this point of time. our timings we running. it took us.. almost 40mins to get it started. mind you, the test was only 50 - FIVE ZERO mins. a few questions not done thanks to that. i was panic so i just click whatever that i think was right. at the end of the test. we both got D. yeah. quite lucky.
i sat in the lecture alone. it was scary you know. cause it's LTK2 i'm talking about. super big lecture and well, they dimmed the lights. i sat and i think of whatever that was happening. i couldn't blame anyone but myself. i was holding back the river i had to give. but just when dayah and sayang and the rest came in. my river flowed like nobody's business. i'm sorry to make you worry guys. eventually, kak jam and the rest wasn't in. they didn't see what happened. things happen for a reason.. yesterday, was that day i had pressure all over me. i was trying so hard to save everything. but in the end, i/me/saya/aku threw it away just like that. thanks basirah. you (basirah) are the bestest bestfriend i ever had. i'm leaving everything now. leaving it for what it'll worth. i'm dwelling to much. i need encouragement. i need you.
i made myself smile on the later part of the day. well, atleast i forced myself to smile and laugh. and cry at the same time. i met the cousin, yana, at Pasir ris. while waiting for the Aunts and of course, mummy, to finish their movie at E!hub. (yet another place to go to at that point of time)
i had to put a mask. we got home at 11.
Aunty Lela, Aunty Baby, Aunty Linda, Mak Long, Aunty Ain, Mummy, Aunty Lilin (no, that's not me) picture taken by, Me. (:
all i need, is you.
love,
me
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