cause the steps i made are histories i write.
★ HAPPY FASTING. ★
Thursday, September 13, 2007
first and foremost...
HAPPY FASTING!!!
haha!
i can't believe it's fasting month already..
it's just so fast.
i feel like as if i just met HIM yesterday.
well, i'm sure no one understands what the previous
sentence was about, true? haha! nvm..
i'm having sleepless nights lately..
and dear's having weird dreams..
what's up sey?!
i don't know.
the worst part was last night..
i slept early..
knowing i was tired, and
had to work morning shift.
BUT! i ended up rolling up and down,
left and right.
to and fro.
IRRITATING!
it's like..
i AM sleeping,
having very.. weird thoughts/dreams.
and i know my every move.
i was just too disturbed by
i don't know what..
and i was just toooo afraid to know what time it was.
main reason, cause it will make me feel worst..
i die die didnt want to see the time..
and so i was the early one to wake up for sahur.
well, i tried sleeping back after i wake up AGAIN.
ahhh bissh! forget about the sleepless nights.
i slept like a pig already when i got back just now.
work was, well.. kinda okay..
haha! i did alot of "new" stuffs that i haven't try before..
like, oral toilet.. and off plug!
yes yes! i did off plug!
is that COOL or WHAT!
haha!
i did alot of NGT today.
kinda boring..
and hey, i hate working with you.
bloody faggot. you're a regular there already.
and you're acting like that.
i was trying to be friendly..
and not like some student who show
their fcuked up face right infront of you.
for Gods sake, i was feeding a client.
and there you were telling others that
i haven't do para..
and i'm sure that's not the only time..
you've been acting like that since DAY ONE!
it's just so sway that my last week of attachment
is attached to you.
DAYM SWAY!
come on, you were once,
LIKE US.
don't try to be so bossy.
and you're just above me.
not as if you rank is sooo high!
i'll pass out becoming higher ranking then you.
you also talk to higher ranking staff
like your little brother and sister.
i seriously can't tolerate it anymore,
and guess what?
I'M NO LONGER SEEING YOU AFTER TMR.
i smiled at you, talked to you.
helped you..
and all i get is that, you ignored me.
if i see you tmr, my LAST day..
i'm not gonna talk to you, i'm not gonna smile..
i'm gonna treat you like how you treat me..
I PROMISE.
i'm there to learn.
not to be looked down at, bloody faggot!
it's the first day of fasting month,
and someone made me soo angry already.
i'm sorry God for acting this way..
but it's just so hurtful..
i hope You know..
may my life be more blessed.
love,
`yraJANE
8:11 PM
