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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i'm happy in a way now that, i've known the truth. yes, sadden-ing also to know the truth. happy, yet sad.. get it? good. i have no reasons to be jealous or whatever more now. you're leading a happy life now, and i know that. i can't deny that i'm never gonna be the girl you onced knew. i shall not interfere in your private life anymore. i'll just keep quiet, unless you ask, and you tell. it has been three days, and there's still tears though. things happen for reasons. yes, i kept alot of things from you.. reason is cause i don't wanna hurt you. i don't want you to think that you're hurting me by the things you do. i'm a liar. yes, i am. but i lie for good reasons, and i hope you'll understand. it's not your fault, it's mine. i think too much, and i get myself hurt for thinking the things i shouldn't be thinking. yes, that's the real truth. i love you, bestie. i know you know it well, and i hope you love me too, like how i do to you. =))
okay next!
hmmm. congrats to the Lions for the victory. *now then wanna say* i spent my time watching the finals at Mazlan's Residents. damn, it sure was fun watching soccer with them. hahaha! the best thing was, i can MAKI all i want! hahaha! cooooollll shiiiittt! don't blame me, blame them! they started it first! hahaha! alot of the "m.k.p.p" "p.m.d" "a.s" "s.p.j" and what more! FUN YOU KNOW!! haha. shout the vulgarities here and there. cursing the thais, esp that number 7 jackass! WAKAKAKA! *i'm sooo mean!* anyways, after watching soccer. i sat in the room with yana and Nyet, the dearest cat. i was soooo mean *again* and kacau2 Nyet. haha.. then she was mean to me! she go cakau me. first time. nothing wrong. second time, i feel like eating her alive! hahaha. she cakau me until got blood okay! but abit only. no big. wakakaka! and then she know i binget of her ready.. she ran out of the room. gendeng cat cat! hahaha. then when i was at the kitchen drinking water.. she came to me.. purr-ing so manje-ly.. idiot right? first, cakau me.. and then manje2 with me. hahaha. she want food. thats why super manje with me. hahaha. but guess what? i ignored! hahaha. i'm not mean okay! it's cause she ate alot already.. =D haha! the night ended with my super red plus swollen eyes.. yes! yana was on the phone with her dearest zul when i was lying down.. thinking and thinking and never stopped thinking. and yana pathetically told zul that i was being so "pasrah". =.= hahaha! then zul asked this super.. "stupid" question.. "pasrah full ke pasrah half half?" like super duper buper zuper =.=, can?! hahaha! then i said.. "pasrah half half." hahaha! btw, thanks eh zul! aku da tk pasrah lagi. wakakaka! next morning was kind of a drama. hahaa. before sleep, fina told me this.. "kak baishoknaa. bsk klu alarm i bunyi.. i tk bgn..kejut i tau. i takot i tk sadar.. mampoz i lmbt gi skola nanti.." and so i nodded and promised her i'd wake her up. guess what?! i HEARD the alarm, and i was thinking "i'll wake her up when the alarm stop ringing, she slept late yesterday. let her sleep a lil while more.." so while i was waiting for the alarm to stop ringing... i... FELL ASLEEP! PURE SHIT-NESS! hahaha! then i woke up, not knowing what time it was.. i turned. i saw her still sleeping.. "dodoknaa.. bgn... u nk gi skola pkl bapee?" ...*waking up..* "uh?? skrg pkl bape? i lom dgr alarm i..".. "i tk tau pkl bape. my hp batt da mampoz. u gi check ur hp.." ...*finding her phone* "MAMPOZ!!!! DA PKL 6!!! I DA KENE KT BAWAH TUNGGU BUS SKOLA SKRG!!!" and i went like... stupid me to fall asleep, but lucky me that i got up and to wake her up, atleast! she sonic-ly bathed and everything. haha.. cute sey.. and u know.. she sempat say this.. "naseb u kejot i sey.. klu tk.. i tk gi skola la nmpk nye. thanks eh kak bai!" haha.. then she went off to school. lucky her bus came kinda late for that day. haha.
anyways, my stomach is sure not getting better. just feel like taking the knife and just... hahaha. =D
forget it. till here ppl.
take care =))
i miss you my love, do get well soon.
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